I can relate totally to your entire original post. Sounds like my life.
In my 30's I was diagnosed as ADD (sort of). They diagnosed my son and then myself (wrongly I now believe).
The professional psychologists we saw couldn't actually put their finger on WHAT was wrong,
so they decided it must be a "form" of ADD! They were puzzled, truly.
We went on Ritalin. It helped somewhat, in certain situations, but it didn't "cure" me (or him).
I was EXTREMELY depressed for a whole year from finding out I didn't simply have bad "habits" that I could fix.
Plus that I had passed on this awful gene to my son. I was always going to be this way?!
During that period the exact same thought occurred to me, I wish I was in a wheelchair so people wouldn't expect me
to be normal when I couldn't! Instead one is seen as "failing" situations, or better yet, "mean".
I got over it. It took a long time. Some things I worked on, some I gave up on.
By the time we found out about AS I was thrilled. ADD never really fit, but THIS disorder was tailor made!
It describes me to a "T" (what does that mean anyway?). No wonder ritalin didn't work!
It must sound crazy to be happy to learn you are probably AS. But it ended 35 years of NOT knowing.
I am intimately familiar with all of my "problems". That they can be seen on ONE list and point to ONE answer,
is a breath of fresh air. This time around I was not depressed, and I do not wish I had the wheelchair.
This knowledge is priceless. And calming. I can handle this.
But I know where you are coming from. Yes, other people do think that at times.
29 Dec 2011, 10:41 am
