What causes your meltdownn?

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I have meltdowns when things happen that are unexpected.

More often than not it's stress. Everything just piles up and I can't shake anything off, then something happens that just completely set me off. If it's something little, I just end up going on a tirade, then calm down (and usually end up feeling like crap because I yelled at someone who didn't deserve it). If it's something bigger I might scream and yell, I might not. If I do, I'm probably not liable to make much sense. Regardless of whether I yell or not, I usually end up crying, and depending on how bad it is, I'll sometimes get to a state where I'm completely numb, not really thinking or feeling much of anything.

I also go through what I call "good" meltdowns (I don't really know if they should really be considered meltdowns, but the detachment from reality it pretty similar). Sometimes if I'm reading or watching a lot of video on a subject I find interesting, I'll get to a point where it's as if that's the only thing that exists for me. Usually I'll go for a walk, thinking through problems and talking to myself for hours (probably scaring a lot of normal people ). Does this happen to anyone else?

I have meltdowns when I feel threaten and out of my safe zone.

As I said in another topic I had a bad meltdown in high school. Two kids pulled my hoodie down which made me feel threaten since I was out of my safety net.
Now in hindsight I could have just put the hood back up, but I was so upset at my safety net being invaded that I snapped and had a major meltdown. I started banging my head on things and I tried to attack the two kids who pulled my hoodie down. I had to be put in restraints cause I bit a teachers finger.

Luckily I haven't had a big meltdown in awhile.

Bullying, harsh criticism (non-constructive), insults, strongly opinionated and judgmental loudmouths (who don't know all the facts of what they're talking about), discrimination, injustice, prejudice, constant interruptions, slander, etc. etc. especially when directed at me, my family, and those I care about.

All sorts of stuff, but stress is the common denominator.

Well, yeah, I've always found pets or working with animals keeps me from totally withdrawing back to my my inner world..
For me Meltdown+ Outburst, verbal usually. Or lashing out, which you usually involves property damage (or self-injury see my last response!LOL). But three times I've threatened violence to someone tormenting me (or being perceived to). That caused a lot of counseling/therapy. And guilt depression, & withdrawl. I'm a pacifist at heart. When I get violent it shakes my entire life.

Sincerely,
Matt

when people put their hands on me in a dominating manner, sexual harassment, threats people make just to dominate. domination drives me crazy. people just have to prove they're stronger than you are. and i know i look like the perfect victim: i don't have friends to protect me and that aspie look in my eyes is mistaken for helpless. the fact that i don't always understand what people are saying and have slow processing makes me look vulnerable.
i used to see a red fog, get voilent and sometimes not remember what i did later, but i had to be provoked badly first. i took kickboxing classes and learned to control my temper.
once i tried throwing a heavy suitcase at a man's temple after he got out of the alley with his friend, blocked my way and rubbed his hands on my body. his friend laughed. then they both walked away. i ran after them, blocked their way and then went for the man's temple (had a suitcase cause i went from one apartment to another). he ducked and i tried hitting his friend between the legs. he stepped back. i pulled my hand with the suitcase back and was ready to attack again, but they walked away.
i saw a red fog and couldn't think when i did what i did. they never bothered me again, though. that's not the first time i saw red, either. i think aspies and anyone else on the spectrum are more emotional than nts. that's why we suffer from general anxiety and get so angry and depressed, too. maybe that's why we like music so much. i tend to make a big deal out of things that nts seem to consider as slight inconviniences.