Meltdowns- what do you do?

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Rare these days but as for autistic meltdowns, they go like this:

attacking random people when they keep trying to come really close (good thing strangers usually don't) to try to touch me/restrain me or if they scream loudly and they try to force me to stay with them and be screamed at.

It's simple, really, all would be so much better if only people would keep their hands off and if they'd refrain from throwing a hideous temper tantrum while I'm having a meltdown.

By myself, I'll bang my head and hit myself in a mostly irrational attempt to cope with the sensory pain.

All the while I'll make a humming noise to drown out other noises (especially people rambling on and on) and keep my eyes closed for lengthy periods (because my vision's becomes flickering and painful to endure just like the other senses).

That's usually the first thing happening before a meltdown really starts too, I'll "stop looking" and make noise if I am literally forced to endure a painful overload.

I listen to ROCK MUSIC!! It seems to relive me somehow. Especially when I can relate to the words in the ongs.

It varies but usually I will try and bottle my emotions up and walk way from people and listen to some music to help calm me down. Or If I am not at work or school I will pace alot breath heavily panic abit if its real bad I will sometimes get into self hate mode if I feel it is my fault and cause self harm luckly I dont get into this mode as much as I use to because I try to fight it off inside with thinking possitive thoughts about myself to battle the negative thoughts manifesting inside me. Other times I will grab some booze and it will go away and I will forget and not care what set me off in the first place and get over it very quickly. Alot of times when I have a meltdown I get a nasty headache.

i only get a meltdown when i'm provoked deliberately.
then i see a red fog and feel myself moving without being able to stop. sometimes i dont remember what i did later.
i've pinched another girl as a child till she was purple. i didnt remember doing it though.
as a grownup i tried slamming a heavy suitcase into someone's tample because he rubbed his hands on me after staggering drunk from the alley and his friend laughed. they walked away and i followed and blocked their way and could've killed him. he ducked, and i tried slamming the suitcase between his friend's legs. he stepped back. they walked away then and i think they were scared.
i've learned an excellent way to control my rage! it's awesome. i even wrote about it in my blog, how a rage attack feels and how to control it. anyway, i went to kickboxing school and punched and kicked punching bags and built my anger, and then stopped when the instructor said to stop.
and it worked! i havent had a rage attack over a decade! once or twice i was close to having one and got a shutdown instead, where i couldnt talk, because i knew if i did i might say something that will trigger the other person to say something that will provoke me further, and then i might lose it... but still, over a decade! knock on wood, no that it used to happen very often. i'd have to be provoked real bad.
i get maaaad when being touched against my will, or told what to do or how to live my life, or when people try to dominant me the way dogs do with each other. to all of you who think women dont do it, only men do - you're dead wrong.
i also go through my mind the scenarios that make me go into a rage, i know myself and i know what will trigger me. and i look for peaceful ways of ending the situation quick, so when it happens i'll know what to do. one way is to get up and walk away. or if someone tries to dominate you then you give him the middle finger and turn your back instead of lashing out.
what works for one person doesnt necessarily work for another but try it anyway.

I tend to stim a bit (bob my leg up and down, rub my eyes or fiddle with things), zone out i.e. stare into space or play my DS, PSP or iPod