fragileclover wrote:
There are a few special exceptions, but for the most part, I'm incredibly impatient, particularly if I'm trying to show someone how to do something, and they just aren't getting it. I LOATHE having to repeat myself, and any time I've tried to show someone how to do something, I've had to fight myself not to jump over them and do it myself.
A very recent example of my impatience was the other evening when I was on the phone with my boyfriend. He was really excited about a video concept he had for a song he'd been listening to, and he wanted to tell me, in detail, about the concept and get my opinion. I was in the middle of doing something when he called, and I wasn't particularly interested in the concept, because it's not likely this concept would ever come to fruition, but I allowed him to talk to be nice. However, about halfway through the call, I was becoming increasingly impatient to get off the phone, and I started punching the arm of the chair I was sitting in so that I could fight the urge to tell my boyfriend I was no longer interested. It was awful.
Hmmmm, fc, I recall your diagnostician pegged you as subclinical ADHD.
I find that once I get hooked into a train of thought, a stick of dynamite couldn't crack through that . And many times this is the case or rule, with a few exceptions. Someone talks, I zone out --I feel this an injustice but it's something beyond my full control.
It has to be something different or special to break into my attention awareness; then I do find my of track of thinking adjusting to that.
Repeating something twice drains me somehow, and the impatience exudes -- this shows and is off putting-- and I'm acutley aware of it, but can do little to garner control.