I use to, for over 10 years, we did everything, gamed together, were like brothers and were even working on a story together. Until I realized this so called friend was totally bringing me down, had no respect for me, probably saw me as a toy and I was coasting through his English degree using my ideas for a story he's trying to publish now. I made an angry "honest" note on FB but my true feelings for him, among other people and his only response was a sarcastic "Are you finished? Stop lurking on facebook now.".
When I think of him I get so angry, today I had a meltdown where his words played in my head and I started to punch myself over and over. At first it was soft but then I started thinking of him and his mocking typical macho s**t. "BE A MAN. MANLY MANLY MANLY. LOOK AT ME AND HOW AWESOME I AM" and now I have bruises on my face. He thinks nothing of the FB fiasco and really thinks I'm going to come back (I've had minor melt downs to him in the distant past but this is the first in years).
He loves video games more than me though and he was very excited about playing Diablo 3 and I know I'm the person he wanted to come along and kill s**t with. I have a feeling when the 15th comes he will try emailing me or acting concerned, or simply tell me to get over it. Maybe he won't, I did send him another message recently that was very violent. I hope it scared him.
I'm finished with him and feel oddly liberated. We are total opposites on the political spectrum and he lives a very sheltered, good life yet thinks because he's catholic all his opinions are the ONLY ones that matter. He thinks people with aspergers or social issues such borderline, schizo, social anxiety etc are walking jokes and he views people who get government aid as scum. Sure hope he never has to get any! He has this impression he is a hard, manly working that's earned everything in his life yet his mother has gotten him every job he's had and he lives in a very close knit community, unlike me.