I also forgot to mention that I have a fear of failure. I am always trying to be a perfectionist, especially as a self-educated writer, it has given me lots of fears that most people find over the top. Some of which include reading out loud, failure, people judging me about how I write or type, criticism and all sorts of things. I even fear that when someone wants me to read their stories on wattpad that I won't be able to because I don't know how to. I lack abstract things and all that junk and my brain can't wrap around the idea of how to critique someone else's work.
So as a writer, I fear most of all is failure. As for the fear of being judged, i even fear the compliments I hear about people saying how fast I type or how well I write. It just makes me feel really embarrassed or anxious and at the same time good because they are still good things. I'm not sure why but I just hate being judged, even in a good way.
My parents are often complimenting me on that and I always whine at them and their like, "Oh come on, can't you take a good compliment?" It's not that I don't, it's just... hearing all that doesn't really well... click like it should.
I also fear that I'm a terrible writer. That one day I will fail as a good writer and give up completely. It doesn't matter what people tell me because in my eyes, I'm a horrible writer who really needs to quit writing and just... not write. Yet people say I'm a good writer and I just... my biggest fears are failure and giving up.
When I write, I always have to redo chapters or I always get new ideas and all that. I get tired of doing it and move on to new ideas for that big, "omfg i love this story" thrill. I can't even commit to a story for a long period of time.
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Diagnosed with an autistic disorder (Not AS but mild to moderate classic Autism), ADHD, Learning Disability, intellectual disability and severe anxiety (part of the autism); iPad user; written expressionist; emotionally-sensitive