If I was NT, I would be getting ready right now to go out to the pub with my brother, my cousins and their friends. My brother's mate would've fancied me instead of my female cousin, because usually your brother's mates fancy you if you're social and confident enough. But instead, I am a lonely unsociable geek who sits alone in my room due to the fear of social environments, so my brother's mates just look down on me and look upon me as ''the boring, unsociable geek'', and I know that I am missing out. Social environments are fun when you have got the normal social standards for it, but they're the worst place to go when you haven't. Trouble is, missing out is horrible too, especially when your brother and your cousins are sitting there talking about what they did on Friday night and Saturday night and knowing all the latest gossip of their mates and what goes on in the pubs, etc, and I just sit there none the wiser.
It's not fair. Why can't I have at least one cousin who is similar to me, and joins me in my room on week-end nights? Why am I doomed to be the odd one out? I hate my uncle's sperms for making their kids grow neurotypical brains in the womb. Makes me so mad.
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