Issit wrote:
Ah, no, he did not go into any detail.
And I guess I was at the time moment too confused to ask
I was also 21, very young and very messed up.
I doubt if I'd have thought to ask for details myself at that age. Even now it can be a shock if somebody describes my personality to me, and it can be years before I get any more info on it.
There was one thing I did years ago, before I was diagnosed, that made me wonder. I was working a lot with this lady who I liked, but had consciously decided not to pursue a relationship with her. So I had no conscious agenda. Anyway, one day I noticed this kind of pose I'd gone into, she'd just arrived and we were talking, I was standing in front of a waist-high worktop, facing her, and I'd leaned back and adopted a very cool, comfy posture, it's hard to describe without a drawing, but I think I've seen groups of guys doing that when there's a group of girls around. It must be down in somebody's book of flirty body language somewhere, and I think it means it's possible to have Aspergers without losing all the primitive reflex signals. Don't know how typical that is. It bothers me that the signal I seem to have been sending was independent of my conscious control and (what I thought were) my intentions.