Wrong planet feeling

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It's the perfect description. Maybe it was growing up in the age of the moon landing but I've been susceptible to the notion of dropped off on a bad rock since I was a child. Just here for directions out.

I always feel like an alien. In school all the way up to college I was always alienated by my peers. I didn't have any true friends till college. I still feel alienated all the time even though I have friends now from college and my summer job.

I was, and still am, utterly alone. I am so alone. I am as alone as a human being can be. There is alone, and there is ridiculous. I am past ridiculous. I am tortuously alone. Alone, alone, alone. I am alone.

yeah. try being an adoptee. not only do I not think the way they do, I don't look like anyone I know either

I purposefully typed "Wrong Planet" or something with those words, into Google, because it explained myself perfectly. I was surprised to find that other aspies/ autistic people feel the same as me, which was kind of a relief.

I definitely don't belong here, at least not in the part of the world where I am.
I told myself over and over again as a child, even now, as an adult, that I was dropped here and my sole use is to observe the human condition then report back to my home planet.
Because that's what socializing feels like to me, it's like I'm observing and taking mental notes of everyone I talk with. I try and fit in to this supposedly contemporary race, but it always makes me feel and appear phoney.