Do you live in your head a lot?

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Reality is dull. I prefer whatever images my mind gives me. Numbers are more beautiful, time is infinite, and phrases have shape. I almost always live in my head because there's no better place to be.

As much as I can. Reality sucks

Interesting.

I have a theoretical side and a forced practical one. I have many complex ideas and spend much time with these in my brain that, the 'outside' is merely a distraction. A lot of it is mundane, and even a pain. Most of the time I venture off into the inner world unconsciously, while physically doing chores.

But on the flipside, I found the further I sink into these abstractions (via time), the greater the gulf is with the application of my social skills. I lose something in this process, but I'm not sure what it is I lose. It's as if the feelings I have are destroyed. Everything is sliced and diced and I'm reborn, via a complete paradigm teardown. Maybe this "feeling" is from this breakdown of existing systems that we are all accustomed on a day by day basis, thinking what we literally experience is the only real deal. In a strange way I lose the emotional connections/attachment.

Ted Kaczynski remarked that one day he tried to make a "comeback" but was too far gone - beyond the point of return. I start to get into these out-there-zones and I sometimes feel that a line can be crossed of a "no return" with too much time here with this. It has a denaturing effect.

edit: Definition of 'out there- no return': harmless

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Reality is either dull (at its best) or heartbreaking (at its worst). I feel like the one place where I truly belong is in my imaginary world, surrounded by my imaginary friends.

Yes, all the flippin' time. I find my brain so completely overloaded with creativity that it's like it's about to explode, and I wanna let it out in the worst way... but just the thought of doing so brings on an immediate, and fairly debilitating, embarassment at the thought of letting anyone know what's going on in here, lest they think I'm even weirder than they already do. Is that a common way to feel about it, or is it just me?

Me too.

I can be in my own head while also doing things in actual life, i actually do quite a lot everyday :o

I don't know. I can relate to wanting to get the creative thoughts and everything like that out there, even though it can be embarassing and weird. But I'm not exploding. Maybe because I don't shield my thoughts at all really. I want them. Creative thoughts > World and People.

I'm more grounded in reality today than I was as a kid, as I had an extremely vivid imagination. For the longest time, I had imaginary friends and series of characters who I could easily imagine in different scenarios. I preferred this world over my own as I had a sense of control over it. These have faded, but I still seem to be stuck in my own head at times, always thinking about things that I specifically like, such as disability issues.

I was in my head a lot as a kid. It was awesome. I thought about numbers and stories and retreated from the harsh, cruel, screwed-up world. I have school reports from primary school mentioning my "tendency to daydream". Even now I can immerse myself in my mind, sometimes I spend hours and not realize. Although sometimes I imagine hypothetical scenarios and I have to remind myself that they are separate from reality, disappointing as it is.

considering that that is where my brain is, then i can only say that i never live outside my head. there must be a "deeper" meaning to your question but i am shallow so i can not spot it.

Most definately. I'll lose whole tracks of time to a daydreaming, and when there's nothign to keep my attention, I can go so deep, that I have to be virtually shaken out of it, and then , I'm confused as to where I am and whats going until my mind readjusts to reality. I say I probably live in my head more then I live in the world. Hell, I'm daydreaming as I right this. Day-dream-ception.

This is me as well.

I also find that I want them... honestly, I really like them... I think they're pretty awesome. However what immediately scares me is that if I let anyone else know what they are, I will immediately be laughed at, scoffed at, ridiculed, thought of as some kinda nut-basket, etc., because of what they are. Although I think it's partially because they seem to be centered around there being some situation, environment, sometimes a whole different world, where not only is it normal to be like me, but sometimes even celebrated. I guess they're kind of a result of me needing to feel good about myself somehow, especially knowing how people look at me and think of me in the real world.

However there was one point in my life before I knew I was Aspie... and it's the only point in my entire life that I know of it ever happening... where I had a friend who, for reasons only God knows, wanted to be me. I couldn't tell you what in this infinite universe she could've possibly found to be jealous of, but she found something, and set out to basically shuffle me aside and try to be "the new me" in every situation she could. Needless to say, that was quite disastrous for both of our lives, she's no longer my friend, and my reputation still hasn't completely recovered from her antics yet. However afterwards, when someone told me that this was her motive, the thought of someone wanting to be just like me didn't bring about the reaction that I would've otherwise thought I'd have. In my creativity-filled mind, I would see that as a good thing and be happy that someone thought that much of me. However when it actually happened in the real world, my immediate reaction was to panic. I instantly felt like someone looking up to anything about me was a 10-ton weight dropped onto my shoulders. Thinking that someone would want to be like me suddenly became a massive amount of pressure that I didn't want. I found myself saying to that person who told me, "No... I don't want anyone looking up to me!! Why the heck would she look up to me?? I'm weird."

So I don't know... I guess everything that's in my head is some attempt to reconcile wanting to be thought of as normal, and as something good or desirable, but finding myself completely unable to handle it the one, single, solitary time in my life that it did actually happen. And that's definitely something I don't want people in my life to know.

Are you living in your head? Yes, always. The problem is, how can I get out of my head?

Sometimes panic and despair can be a good thing for an artist. If you want to direct your creative thoughts in that way. There aren't many good artists that seem to be comfortable, if you know what I mean.

I'd love it if the world contained more of the ridicilous thoughts people can manage to have in their brains. I love the ones who do share them, like looney directors etc. "Mind" is the most interesting thing in the world, and something we all can relate with. It is also for some disappointing reason scarcely explored.