I suppose my "flapping" takes various forms due to societal pressures as a young (supposedly "NT") female to "stop acting so damn weird." Taxing business, that acting "normal" is. D:
When anxious, I tend to wring my hands and stim in less noticeable ways; playing with clothes, hair, drumming my fingers and hands on things are the usual suspects.
I forced myself to stop stimming due to excitement unless I'm in the company of people that have come to expect it, but when I do it comes in the form of "dancing," rocking on my heels, clapping, etc. I talk with my hands A LOT. In fact, many an item has fallen casualty to my hand-talking and poor depth perception. Haha.
Recently, I have decided to be less ashamed of how I innately react to stimuli and have allowed myself the freedom to do what feels right.
Yeah, people look at me like I'm a bit odd now, but I try to look at my own satisfaction and comfort as more important than the labels and stigmas that have been forced on me from a young age. It's so freeing to do what feels natural and stop restricting my behaviors so rigidly!
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I wish I knew who I was before I was Me.
Aspie score: 180 / 200 - NT score: 25 / 200
Aloof: 112 / Rigid: 109 / Pragmatic: 117
AQ: 47