Is it weird to enjoy emotional pain?

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It's Nephrite Jade. the sort prized in classical Chinese culture. I'm a Buddhist who admires much of classical Chinese thought so I picked a mineral revered by them for my SN. I was a geology student for two years or so.

Yeah I enjoy it. I love intense feelings and I can only feel negative emotions to a satisfying intensity. I need the stimulation and I can't get it from pleasure so I get it from pain.

I'm not sure if it is stimming. I don't have physical stims in an Autistic sense but I am seeking a form of arousal (emotional arousal) in pain.

It also gives me the satisfaction knowing I'm punishing myself sufficiently.

I'm a junkie for emotional pain.

i'm not sure if my stendahl's syndrome is in the same category as what the OP was talking about, but some would see me and my hyperemotional reaction to some musics, and think that i was suffering emotional pain. but it is not the during but the after that makes me feel better, like a relief of some sort, sorta like how the air feels fresh after a thunderstorm.

This might be weird but when I don't feel emotional pain I feel like something's missing. I don't enjoy emotional pain but in a weird sort of way it makes me feel safe because those are the emotions I've felt every day for so many years. I know those feelings and when I don't experience them (which happens quite rarely) things just feel strange and I don't like it when things feel strange. Is that weird?

Nephrite Jade ... oh, I even love to say that ... that is SO COOL

haha thank you.

Actually, that makes perfect sense. I had a period where I was feeling intensely upset almost every day, and when it was finally over, I had to get used to the idea that "everything's okay now". For a while, it did feel like "something was missing."

I know someone else who is like this. It took me a while to understand it...after realizing I had been experiencing it myself for years without knowing it.

Have they given you reason to feel like that? If so, you need to express your concerns to them, and make sure they stay in touch with you anyway.



Some people, when things are going well, fear that something awful is going to happen BECAUSE things are going so well (I had that habit for a very long time...shaking it can be difficult).

Slightly off-topic: I LOVE your avatar!

most recently it was listening to the music of william wilde zeitler that did it for me. he performs on the glass armonica, and therein is just something, "je ne sais quoi," that turns my waterworks on and on and on.

They haven't. My loved ones make sure to spend as much time with me as they can because they know how lonely and insecure I can be. My fear of being forgotten stems from my own insecurities; I become insanely jealous if my loved ones spend time with anyone other than me, and I get very lonely when they go to work.


It's true; my life has been without any problems for the past 3 years, and it bothers me because I feel like I'm overdue for some kind of disaster.

Thank you for the compliment on my avatar. I love the Mad Hatter and Derpy; they are two of my biggest character obsessions at the moment (well, my Mad Hatter obsession isn't new - he's been my "friend" of sorts for nearly 3 years; but while I have been a My Little Pony fan off and on for about 14 months, my fixation on Derpy is pretty recent)

I love MLP and Derpy also. I wish they'd bring her back.

It's only weird if you enjoy your own emotional pain. Enjoying others' emotional pain is considered tolerable and sometimes encouraged.

Sad, but true....

Me too. In my humble opinion, it's a shame that her first major appearance was ruined by everyone who screamed "political incorrectness" about her voice and characterization. As others have pointed out, dim-witted characters like Ed from Ed Edd n Eddy and Patrick Star have been around for a lot longer than Derpy has, and no one ever got offended by them.

But, there is still hope for Derpy. After all, at last year's Comic Con, they released a limited-edition Fashion Style toy of her, and more recently they have been selling collectible vinyl toys of her at Hot Topic. This means that they acknowledge how beloved she is by her fans and that they probably haven't given up on her as a character. Personally, I hope that even if they don't feature her prominently in any more episodes, that they will at least release more toys of her. In particular, I really want a 10 in or 20 in Funrise plushie of Derpy. I have a Funrise Twilight and everything about her is wonderful. I heard on the FiM wiki that they're going to be releasing a Funrise plushie of DJ P0N-3, so why not Derpy too?

I identify the feeling of sadness the best, probably because I experienced it the most of my time in my life, but I am not really sure whether I enjoy it though. I would rather say I'm fed up with it because it had a too big role in my life and I wish to be happy for the same amount of time so those years won't be considered "wasted years". In fact, I forgot quite a lot of this period of time, my brain decided to try to hide those memories somewhere in a dusty corner under a stack of more pleasant memories.

And to answer the question:
I guess the point of view matters. As some said, "at least I know what I feel" is most likely the reason why one could enjoy that.