Verdandi wrote:
My diagnoses are definitely not "filler." Not defensive, just pondering what you wrote, TheyGoMew.
I agree about meds. I do have a med that has worked wonders for my anxiety, and another to help me sleep. But I do not love the idea of constantly stacking more prescriptions on until something gives.
I also don't get what the amount of diagnosis have to do with a "filler"?
I mean seriously. I was missdx 3 times:
1) with ADHD-disposition with autistic like tendencies from a shrink that toled me that I can't be possible autistic because I went to a normal school
2) with the suspicion of delusion, because I talked about "overload"
3) with the suspicion of Borderline because the shrink toled me ASD is just a modern diagnosis and I wouldn't possibly have gender identity disorder and well, we didn't come along very well.
But I don't have those diagnoses anymore. Also the
Gender Identity Disorder (GID) is sure now, I'm taking hormones for nearly two years now and so on.
Every time it was "just" one disorder from ppl who didn't have a clue about ASD.
They wanted to keep things easy and where mad in the end that it didn't worked out.
1) Well I got special therapy for two years as a little child, because of my problems with the
dyslexia. I actually don't have this diagnosis anymore, but in my psychiatric writings it very often mentions my dyslexia in childhood. I'm comming from a "dyslexic-family". My mom had dyslexia as a child, my brother had it, my aunt had it, my cousin had it and my other cousin has it severe and still has it. So it's deffinetly no filler.
2) Later on there was added my
HFA diagnoses, who is deffinetly correct, with my speech delay and so on. Maybe it's "just" PDD-NOS because I improved much and my social understanding is quite well, but I still have autistic difficulties, but those exact diagnostic lables doesn't matter to me. As a child I was very typical.
3) Later on, as a teenager I got heavily
depressed, I even had to got to the hospital. There I was "filled up" with meds, but "just" because of one lable: depression. So you deff. don't need many to do this.
But nothing really worked and I had huge side effects. Those side-effects and the pressure of the hospital lead to a suicide attempt with "agitated depression" and a trauma afterwards. I didn't take any meds after that for two years. That's why I'm just taking agomelatonin at the moment. My shrink and I discussed lithium carbonate, because I made good experiences with lithium orotate once. This was my decision. That was one of the reasons bipolar was discussed in the first place, because lithium orotate was one of the fiew meds that worked against my mood problems and my half brother had schizophrenia and those two are genetically linked. But we first want to try lithium carbonate after my operation who is hopefully next month and because of my GID. But that's also the reason why I'm still after years under "bipolar suspicion", because my shrink toled me right now I'm "just" dx with depression, because it's first possible to tell for sure after the stress because of the GID went away, I'm through the opteraion and all that stuff. Well, it seems he is pretty carefull with lables.
My mood is also the only reason I would take medication for, no matter how you call it, I so much don't care.
4) And my
tics, well they are pretty obvious:
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RnBW0-J5UhU[/youtube]
But I even don't have them officially dx, because I so don't care anymore what shrinks write about me and I don't want treatment because of them. Usually they are not that strong all the time, they come and go, but testosterone made them more severe, especially in the beginning.
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