silence is suffocating

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I am rather rigidly over-self-controlled. So it is rare for me to lash out to begin with.

But I do a lot of cognitive stuff like reminding myself that they are not trying to annoy me and are actually not doing anything wrong at all. It is my problem, not theirs.

Eventually I will have to leave the area, though.

I hate silence. Instead of being hypersensitive I am hyposensitive so I need excessive sensory stimulation to not feel numb.

I will seek out large crowds and lowd noises just to relieve the numbness. If you put me in an exam room it's like subjecting me to total sensory deprivation and solitary confinement. It's torture.

Strange thing. I used to hate silence myself, I needed to listen to SOMETHING or else I would start to panic. Now, I am the complete opposite, with the exception of music that I like...however, I have to listen to it at a low level or else I feel overwhelmed.

do you think its worth trying to get permission to listen to music in exams, do you think they would listen, i have not really got a valid diagnosis of anything to warrent it apart from how it makes me feel.

Silence is nice, I like it a lot. White noise helps me get to sleep. Birds chirping and raindrops on the roof is soothing. all kinds of music is mood enhancing.
The worst kind of noise for me is rough people swearing, yelling, and talking loud. I have neighbors like that.

Sometimes I just need the quiet of music. It has to be music that i know so that it just becomes a background noise that drowns everything else out. Others around me still try and talk to me and I just feel like screaming.

Someone earlier asked about dealing with the aggression. For me, it just feels as if there is a clock spring inside that is just winding up tighter and tighter. Most of the time, I can just lay down on my bed and listen to music through noise canceling headphones. It helps if i play some mindless game like bubble pop or angry birds, soething like that.

I love silence

Silence is incredible When you are walking in nature and everything is silent your mind opens up and the deep introspection begins.

I've always hated silence until just under 2 years ago when I was staying at my sisters house, I sort of got used to the quiet. The weird part is that I could have put on music or something but I didn't. When I'm staying somewhere else, things that I'd normally do, don't always get done. In this case I guess it was always having music on when there was nothing else making noise, like TV or rain.
Ever since then, I have found myself occasionally sitting in silence for hours, I'd never been able to comfortably do that before. I used to hate sleeping and waking up in silence. Sometimes it was as if the silence was too loud. That probably makes no sense but I guess my mind must create some sort of noise that isn't quite like regular noise. And then other times it would create music or people talking in an over crowded room so I can't understand what anyone is saying.
Now, I have no idea why but silence doesn't bother me so much anymore. Don't get me wrong, I still prefer to have noise but it's no longer a necessity all the time.