Do you wear a "mask" everyday?

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Yes I mask who I really am. Even alone 24/7 because I hate the real me and who I really am.

"No one cared who I was until I put on the mask."

"A man has as many true selves as there are people who recognise him"

I'm the opposite. I show myself to the world with all my glory, being true to the real me who likes The Kinks and the 60s and looking up to my kindred soul, Mick Avory as a role model. I've worn three masks - the hippie mask, the nerdy mask and the tough punker mask. I was starting to hate myself my last days wearing the punk mask to the point that I went back to being myself like I used to between 1994 and 1996 - between the ages 19 and 21. I prayed that the world could see me as I am and was before 1997 which is pretty much the same thing if you think about it. The NT World is much more accepting of me than they were between 2007 and the Summer of 2009 - during my tough and cynical punk years. Why, you ask? Because I'm being myself. I've learned the hard way that people will like me better if I be myself. The lesson also took me 12 years to learn. I don't wear masks anymore, because I'm proud of the real me that I've made peace with over the past 4 years.

I do wear a mask every day, and there are some days I wish people would recognize that it is a mask. A part of me does want people to reach out though I maintain a hands-off posture routinely.

I've found that even if people do recognize that I'm wearing a mask, they prefer the mask over the real me. Sad, but true...

Some of the closest people to me have seen me both masked and unmasked. They seem to prefer the mask, but sometimes they seem annoyed by the mask too. It's all so complicated.

If I took off my mask I could potentially be a social catalyst of some sort. I know that I would piss a lot of folks off with my observations of humanity but those who see it would realize the truth in what I say.