why would you want to have aspergers syndrome: it sucks.

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Well aspergers is not so bad after all, it is better than having rabies or lung cancer ! I will not want to trade my AS for either of these conditions !

Well, I didn't mean nobody else in the world. I just meant nobody else in my family or in my school when I was growing up had it, so I basically had to be NT to keep up with the rest. This was why I felt so alone as a child, and just had to kind of forget about it and just go with the mainstream flow. It's probably why I know so much about NTs and have learnt quite quickly how the NT mind works and how they think and feel, etc.

I think it's something what happened on my first day of school when I was 4, what's one factor that has made me feel ashamed of myself ever since. Apparently I behaved really badly at school and nobody knew why. My parents were so worried that they got mad at me, the teachers were mad at my parents because they thought my sudden behaviour was to do with some sort of abuse at home - which it wasn't. And this was all because I didn't show any noticeable differences as a baby and toddler, so nobody could of even guessed I had AS if they tried. It took a few years after several assessments to find out what was wrong, but I still dislike the label now. I still feel angry at myself for frightening my parents when I was 4. I know it was a long time ago and I should get over it, but it's still traumatized me, and I just wish I could turn the clocks back and just behaved like any typical child on her first day of school, and my mum and dad would have been proud of me for settling into school so well. But I have read somewhere about bad experiences on a child's first day of school could haunt them for the rest of their life.

Also another thing what has disturbed me about having AS is when I was 10, every child had to have a vaccination for Meningitis, but they wouldn't let me have it because apparently they had heard that it could affect my AS and make me ''worse''. So I was the only child who didn't have it done, and I was so angry because I thought people didn't want me to be immune to Meningitis and were trying to kill me. I was only 10 so didn't quite understand. Also I hated being the only child in school who didn't have it done, while they were all talking about it at playtime (you know how kids are).

Also I feel so ashamed of having AS, and I find it SO hard to look someone in the eye and say ''I have Asperger's Syndrome'', just like that. I just can't do it, I'm sorry. For those of you who have a true phobia of spiders, it'd be a bit like making yourself touch a spider, a really big one, the ones you are afraid of the most. You just can't. That fearful feeling is so unexplainable. This is exactly how I feel about telling someone I have AS. It's that hard. I just cannot do it! And this causes problems, because I'm too ''normal'' to be believed that I have something like an ASD, but not ''normal'' enough to get away with pretending I have nothing wrong at all. So things are a little hard for me.

You don't have to tell people you have Asperger's. I think people categorize people and update it as time goes along. You're a very likeable person. Maybe people think better of you than you realize.

most people can detect that you have autism by your behaviors that you do... so you don't have to tell... they got an auto-autism from the sheeple... its like they know from your actions...

People won't necessarily know you're Autistic, but they can tell you're in some way ... d i f f e r e n t by your body language and facial expression. It is very sad that people judge based on totally insignificant factors such as this before they even know someone.

If I could choose I wouldn't want Asperger's/Autism but I've got it so I've got to make the most of it.

Joe, you should really count your blessings. I wouldn't mind being able to read body language a bit better.

I must ask: do people that hate having AS always thinking about it in that way? What would be the percentage of time you spend thinking negative thoughts about AS in a day? Mine would be 3% with a big 20% jump when I'm having a depressive episode.

I don't hate my autism, ADHD, bipolar or epilepsy. I just have to get through the symptoms so I get the best out of my day.

So what I'm gathering is that your parents are evil because they want you to bring your dirty dishes to the sink.

Sarcasm and mockery, whether justified or not, aren't a good idea for a moderator of a support forum.

If that's the case then that individual is just incredibly narrow-minded and needs to get a grip.

Having AS and NOT knowing it is far worse than having AS and knowing--or at least suspecting--it.

tell me if landing a job and getting fired is right... isn't money everything in this ****ed up world... the reason why i stay at my fathers... the pay of the jobs i get is two low for to many hours of work...

I wasn't mocking; I was just going by the example given.

I present as a jerk when I meet NT's sometimes Miscommunication and fear of the unknown to make non-jerks behave like jerks.

I don't understand what the issue is with bringing dirty dishes to the sink. If they are just sitting there and have sat there for days and they were piling up, I would be nagging too if you were never doing it.

it like two or three dishes... see i do them at the end of the day to save water... my parents act the worst around me..