Self-medicating

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I used to smoke a lot more weed and my use has fluctuated over the past 12 years since I first tried it. Currently I still smoke, but my anxiety levels and other symptoms that I was self medicating for have dropped through the floor in comparison to how bad they used to be, so I can get away with smoking very little. I still use it to unwind and relax a bit, but it's more recreational use than medicinal at this stage of the game. I'm down to somewhere just North of an 8th/month, or thereabouts. I find it's super easy not to smoke much when you get used to not rolling joints. I never was big on packing bowls whether a bong or pipe. I do have a vaporizer which would minimize use even further, but I rarely use it. I tend to just have 2-3 tokes from a one hitter (quartz glass bat) sometime after work/evening or before a run/workout. By cutting down to so little over the last several months my tolerance has gone way down so I still get a good effect from such a small amount of pot. It's all about cutting down down down, or stopping all together for a while, in order to let your tolerance go back down so you don't need as much to feel the positive effects of it. If you're having difficulty with self control, don't buy an O or a half or a q or even an 8th - just buy a dime (1g) & then you'll force yourself to ration it out over a week or so before you pick up another vs. having a big ol' bag of fluffy nuggs around that you can dip into, and then roll another & another from.

Also, if you smoke tobacco, cut that out - the nicotine as a stimulant is not good for ya and will cause far more problems than weed ever will.

I too find that when I smoke I delude myself into thinking things of people, that I know them in ways that I really don't, that I am "getting it" socially when I'm really, really not.... I've had some paranoid delusions come up here and there even with regular, low-dose usage. This aspect is most dangerous and now you say this I would recommend finding alternates to medicating with marijuana. Guided meditation could restore clarity for you to have insight into things marijuana previously masked or distorted.

Ah, the jungle gym of the monkey mind, yes indeed, it is something to break free of; and ironically, marijuana is used for this purpose, though it is a short-cut where real wisdom and insight would be lasting.

I'll give that a try. Thank you.

Very true.

Yeah, but goldfish, you cer-azee Yanquis smoke joints that are pure grass, so you can't be taken as a reliable measuring post.

I tried smoking an American friend's joint once. Not realising the UK/US difference, I did what I would normally do, and took a long deep drag and held it in for a good few seconds. Then I exhaled and become one with the cosmos. And then suddenly it was midnight and I'd lost three hours.

I've been a chronic for over 20 years. I know it's totally got a hold of me, but the alternative isn't that great. Between cigarettes and joints I'm smoking my way to an early grave, but frankly, I'm happy to trip away into death.

LOL

I currently smoke pure weed. I was mixing up to 50% natural tobacco & enjoyed it but had to cut the nicotine out 5 or so months ago. It's only over the last few years I even began blending in tobacco (since I'm not a cigarette smoker) but one of my close friends smokes spliffs only so I got used to mixing the two. I've had the odd puff of a Djarum Black after a few tokes, but haven't really smoked tobacco at all over the last 5+ months. Someday I'll go back to blending a little in here and there.

Fwiw I live in the suburbs of Vancouver, BC, Canada.. we're kind of well known around the world for quality bud. Annnd now that I'm one with the cosmos, since it's not raining, it's time for me to go outside for a run in the dark.

Brownies are fun

True . . .
But there's nothing like breathing in the smoke and feeling my mind open and my body relax. It's the closest I come to feeling human.

I just read your OP, and I just have to save be careful.

I struggled with a weed addiction for about 2 years. I smoked so much it wouldn't do anything for me so I switched to K2. Even before I made the switch, all I could do was smoke.
At first I managed school and my life while smoking but eventually it increased and took over, and this was a small creeping take over a long period of time.

You and I have very similar reasons why we smoked.


Try stopping for a month. If you find that you can't, you may have a problem.

I emphasize may, a lot of people don't have problems with it, but if you think you do, you may need to take a break.

Meditating and Tai Qi has helped me tremendously with things that weed used to help me with.

Thank you all for the replies. I am now craving brownies O..O

I'm out of my meds.

Can't get to sleep before dawn, or concentrate on work, or get anything done.
Lame.

I need to get paid so I can get some more so I can work some more, but getting paid is a long, annoying undertaking at this point which would involve at minimum showering, shaving, a 4 hour round trip on the bus, and dealing with people I don't really want to interact with as unmedicated as I am.