Childlike perspective?

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I don't think I ever grew up. I've felt like a child all my life.

I look younger than I am. I suspect his is because my face doesn't do very many expressions. It's like free botox.

As for feeling that I'm in a child's body though, no, I don't get this. I am quite tall though.

A few days ago I was watching a Supernanny episode, and the family had a 2-year-old toddler, and after I watched it I got up and suddenly saw myself as a toddler, and I toddled into the kitchen and looked up innocently at my dad. He didn't really notice anything, as I was probably just being myself from the outside, but I felt like a toddler inwardly for a few seconds. I think it was envy of watching a toddler being himself on the telly, because I do so wish I was a small child again.

I am 60ish, When I find an empty playground I will jump on a swing on a swingset, eyes facing the sun if possible.Then,as I swing, I scrunch my eyelids shut to varying degrees and get excited about all the kaleidioscope action in frontof me.

People are constantly commenting on how I am able to play pretend games with little children , being the princess, the car, the dinosaur, the "crawling hand," whatever. They say that I look like I am actually having fun. I am.

As far as trust goes, I guess I'm like a little kid, [at least until VERY recently] or maybe more like a "born-again naivete virgin." I trust, too easily.Because of that I tend to feel pain and DEEPLY. Then I swear that I am done trusting, that I have learned my lesson finally. Then something happens and I am once again trusting everyone, and getting hurt again.

I do not believe in magic. I do not believe in miracles or fairies, that when I feed or give a coat or money to the homeless that will be just what they need to turn life around. I do not believe that my yorkie-poo understands every word I say. I do not believe that when I pick up a picture of my late husband or dad and start speaking that they hear me, or that wishing upon a star has any value. And yet, as strongly as I don't believe in any of these things, I believe in them all. I'm guessing that is child-like.

When I sit on a park bench and one of my grandchildren and other children are digging in the sand, someone often comments that it would be interesting to be able to see what the kids are seeing. I politely say yes, but inside I wonder why they can't see the treasure chest filled with gold coins, diamond tiaras, emeralds, rubys and candy [lots and lots of candy] and possibly even a new treasure map leading them to another adventure.

I swing between the two extremes, too...from wide-eyed and naive to hyper intellectual and responsible. No middle ground here

That's one of the benefits of not smiling much--no "laugh lines".

I don't feel like I am nearly 40. I often forget my physical age. I can also forget to act it.

Ah I do sensible intellectual once in a while...when the mood takes me.

Welcome to my life.

The therapist who suggested autism, much, much earlier, confirmed for me my own suspicion that my emotional development is stunted. I've told friends that I tend to view EVERYONE as older than me, unless they're an actual child.

I see even those younger than me as my senior. I look up at everyone, I'm actually tallish but my perceptions are 10 inches lower.
I wish I could be an adult like most 21 year olds, I fear I won't reach 21 inside until I'm physically 40. That is if I leave 12 any time soon.

I'm 40, and I still feel like I'm 7 or 8 years old sometimes. Not sure I'll ever reach 21!

YES! At 31, I still do not feel like an adult. I still feel like I am 5 and everyone else is maturing around me. I am living on my own and struggling. I feel like my family and the world is expecting me to handle things that I am not mature enough to handle. I never developed an interest in boys or sex, and everyone expecting me to "settle down" and find a husband feels like they are asking a child to be sexually active. It's just disturbing.

I may have a Ph.D. and authored several publications, but I still feel like I have no business driving a car, or managing a budget, or keeping a home, or having a romantic relationship. Those are adult things, and I'm just a kid.

The trouble is with it, is that my body won't do what my mind wants it to do any more.

The last time I went garden hopping 2 years ago, I pulled my back out and couldn't walk for a week.

I can still do knock-a-door-run. That can be really fun, especially when you do it on house parties. I've had some good chases at 2 in the morning.

We had a paper aeroplane completion at work today, that was fun.

The hardest part of my life was when I hit 12 or 13 and I felt left behind. I went really astray because I didn't grow into an adult. I was still playing out and getting into all sorts of trouble.

As I've got older I've come to terms with it more.

I do, too. When we're doing simple things (like laundry), I still have to be directed. I used to get testy when I was told what to do - sometimes I would do it the opposite way, really obviously. Doesn't accomplish much, though.
My 14 year old is often more responsible than me - this morning my son and I were watching 9/11 conspiracy videos on youtube. I was completely ignoring the fact that they had to get ready for school...

I do both. In some areas I take a lot of ownership and sometimes too much. But in other areas I can really relate to protection thing. That is more so emotional than not. Like I will take responsibility if I do something wrong and I will try to make it right. I also make sure the bills are paid and make sure the groceries are done and stuff like that. But I also have a very young small child inside who pops up a lot and that part of me feels the need to be protected. Funny though because if it does not get protected than it hides and finds protection in the hidden place inside of me. I can get by in life and do whatever I need to do but that child part will hide inside of me if I am around others unless it is with someone that will protect it. If I am in private that child part is more free.

You're not old! But it's really cool to pass as a college student. I am more than ten years older than you and I still pass as a regular aged college student if I am walking on a campus. And I dress in jeans and sweats and tshirts so I can fit in. One person I met last summer thought I was a young 20 something. That was fun. One of my bank tellers who has gotten to know me asked me if they had the date on my ID profile wrong because I could not possibly be the age I was to her. she thought I was at least 15 years younger. And that was form how I looked, talked and acted. But sometimes I talk and act like I am 6 years old or younger, especially if I am really stressed or really excited.