Help me trigger an emotional overload

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I have often been shamed for it, however my 'sometimes' referred to people who have made a big effort to understand me, e.g. my boyfriend or a family member - some family members still shame me, but some used to and now don't because they have better understanding now. But yes, I am fortunate enough to have someone be so caring about my distress that they have apologised for accidentally triggering it. Although even if someone is supportive, I still always want to hide.

EDIT: oh, I do also tell the person apologising that despite it being appreciated there is no need to apologise: although they understand that my outburst/panic isn't purposeful, it doesn't make it their fault that I over react to quite a lot of things that wouldn't bother most people.

Last edited by Gizalba on 26 Jan 2014, 3:13 pm, edited 2 times in total.

If OP is looking for a crying release I understand that better now. The OP was not clear.

Perhaps if you like animals, look for animal abuse articles, that might trigger some crying.

I didn't realise they meant crying either. I can cry when I emotionally overload but am more likely to shout/scream and hit my head. I wondered why they would want to induce something like that as I assumed they experienced similar to myself. Bad habit I have there.

Then I am glad you have found someone and even family members who are so supportive of you. Well done you. I don't think my family would ever apologise. People will be 'sympathetic' until it happens. I can't imagine anyone apologising to me about most things actually. Maybe I am too ready to blame myself.

I wonder if the op's had there tantrum yet?

I didn't mean exactly crying I meant it is like crying. You sometimes need a release but there isn't the overspill required to release it all and it just leaves you highly stressed.

Yes.
The second last episode of the first season of Sailor Moon, where she has to fight Queen Beryl.
Any Disney movie with an intensely happy or sad moment.
Laughing to hard.
Being too happy.
Being too Sad.
Dropping my last timtam on the floor.



I do have triggers, as I stated above.
People saying nasty things about me doesn't work. I don't find their personal opinions of me upsetting unless they are acting out their opinions in an attempt to impact on my life.
Find an Aspie that is your gender of choice. I have, I will never go back to dating an NT. We need to be around our own people.



Remembering traumatic events doesn't work with me. Since they have past, when I think about them, they are just videos of events in my life. Nothing more.

Thinking about stuff that angers me or depresses me won't work either. What once angered me or depressed me greatly, won't have anywhere near the same emotional impact it once did.

I don't want to break something I love or like.

Disrupting one of my routines leaves me stuck and unable to proceed with the next event, it does bother me greatly, but not enough to cause an emotional overload unless it was an entire routine disrupted by an outside force.

A crowded supermarket would be painful and feel like I'm drowning in my own mind. I need a trigger at home.

I want to trigger one because I need to have one.
With me, every little thing that is emotionally upsetting, causes stress or anxiety builds up.
Like a pressure cooker.
Eventually, I need to have an emotional overload in order to be functional again.
When I don't have them and I need too, I cannot concentrate and my senses become quite unstable.
I will perceive sound to be oscillating.
Things in my vision will start to warp.
My olfactory senses register more than they usually would.
So on and so forth.
Once I have one, I feel better.

When I have an emotional overload, it is caused by me having a strong emotional reaction to something.
Which results in me bursting into tears for an extended period of time (anywhere from 3 minutes to 30 minutes)
After it happens, I am completely exhausted and I fall asleep.
When I wake up, I'm a little groggy, but I feel a lot better.
It's like hitting the reset button.



I need to release the pressure valve.
I don't like it, but it needs to happen.
I don't enter a zen state afterwards.
I shutdown afterwards.
Then after a time spent asleep, I arise feeling somewhat better.



Refer to above



I dislike alcohol.
The only hairy part of my body is my pubic region. I've waxed there once. I don't want to try it again.
I've attempted the sad movie, it hasn't worked.



Indeed that is what I am looking for.
I am a female, by the way.



*Chortles* Actually, you might be onto something there.



That would make me feel nauseous. I wouldn't have a strong enough emotional response to trigger an emotional overload.



That would be a meltdown of mine.
I don't like that.
I wouldn't trigger that.
It wouldn't give me any relief.


Lol, no. Not yet.
Heres hoping?


This.

Technically, you're looking for a CATHARSIS, but I suppose you need an overload to achieve it.

Thank you for explaining. Do you pray? That helps me release sometimes.

I am not religious.

Damn man. The last Tim Tam. I'm about to get choked up here just thinking about it.

I never need much help to cry. Certain songs will just do it. I usually need triggers that get me angry and make my brain wake up.

I can smell that Tim Tam now.

It still hasn't happened.

I do believe it might be because of my recent depressive episode that is stopping the emotional overload from being able to happen.

It would be a good thing if you could find a way to let out your stress without having an emotional outburst, but I don't know how to do that. I have the same issue myself.

Okay, I genuinely don't recommend anyone taking this advice, but The Mountain Goats are basically the Big Guns of a desire like this. Be alone, get a few shots of San Juan rum/nail polish remover into your system, then listen to this on headphones a few times, really f***ing listen:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qC-2SzGEk9Y

EDIT: Also, if you had a set of crap parents, go buy The Sunset Tree. You'll find plenty of emotional overload in there...

EDIT EDIT: F*** it. This thing doesn't want to embed for a reason...

Red, this is slightly OT, but do you often think, or at least write, with a lot of line breaks? I find the formatting of your posts very interesting. Is it reflective of a sort of fractured state of mind that occurs before you have an emotional release? Just curious.

Rebel, The Mountain Goats have a similar effect on me. Nice to see them making an appearance.

WTF?


You WANT an emotional breakdown???????


Okay...

The Yellowstone Supervolcano ....its overdue to blow, and wipe us all out!

And its all YOUR FAULT!! !! !! !! !! !!