duck12 wrote:
Hello all,
I am having some problems right now in my life. Nothing is going right, both of my parents don't give a sh** about me and I am on my own, completely lost. My dad's family also harrassed me. I have no gf, no friends, and no talents. I do have a job but it's going to eventually lead to a dead end, and I do have hobbies but unfortunately those are going to lead to dead ends too. I want to get to know more peopl but my mom isn't willing to let me leave the house to try to meet new people and I'm being prevented from doing so. I have not much going for me right now except for my job, which I hate but if I quit I'll get kicked out of my house. There are no opportunities to move out of my home until next year and I can't wait that long, and I am feeling downright ill everyday, I cant get out of bed, doing a simple task is like downright impossible, and I want to die, I need some answers, etc. I hate the fact that people talk down to me also when I'm doing nothing wrong. Another problem is I think I'm being used as a slave to work in my house because my moms not even happy after I've done all the work, and she calls me out for my faults and mistakes constantly. Getting a gf is hard too because I can't go out, however there is a girl I like at work, but sad to say she has a bf who works at the same place I work and I really want to be friends with her but she isn't acknowledging it and it's making me feel upset. Bottom line is I'm totally lost with no one and basically nothing and need some advice. Thanks.
You know what? that is my life on a daily basis.
I am totally broke, living on a sofa in my brother's garage and I feel that none of them give a s*** about me sometimes (or else they wouldn't sit by and let me suffer with hypothermia and not lift a finger to help get my car fixed). I have no job and no skills (especially those in the social department)...I may as well be a freaking
hermit because nobody gives a damn about me and thus the feeling is mutual...which came first? that just doesn't matter anymore because I'm way past the point of no return now.
I feel like I am the butt of endless jokes and when I try to joke, people think I am being serious and when I am being serious, people say 'are you joking?' I am either ignored or abused with nothing in between and nobody seems to care...nobody seems to care for each
other and it's not only me...it's everybody!
Sometimes I have felt like killing myself, but what will that achieve? People will still be as*holes, only I won't be around to witness it...nah, that solves nothing.
So, I asked myself 'what's the whole point then?' why am I so different? why do I see all this s*** so clearly and I seem to be the 'kick me gal' for all the collective problems of humanity?
Then, I started doing yoga and meditation and understood why.
When you are trapped and there's no way out, find the universe within. It's the
only way.
Well I know its not going to help your present situation ... and its just a thought for now, but if I ever get that house (the one with big rooms like mini apartments with utilities in each room) I was talking about a little while ago, there would be a room for you in it if you wanted. Hugs (and in case you don't like hugs, well its just an internet hug lol).
And I agree about meditation, I haven't done this in a while, but I used to, and its great (I was doing 2 different types, the one where you just relax your body and think of a relaxing scene, and the one where you listen to a tape with someone telling you what to imagine etc). I need to start doing this again.
18 Jun 2014, 3:27 am
