visceral loathing of some people
When I was younger- YES. Now? No. I've learned to let it go and I just don't associate with people I don't like (best I can). For example, my mother in law. She has some serious issues. She's stolen from us, lies to us about everything (Even things that don't matter), she's hooked on drugs, she doesn't believe our daughter is autistic (despite heaps of evidence- she chooses to believe it's something we taught her), she's declared bankruptsy twice in the past 5 years, she hates me, she's not very nice to one of my kids, and on and on. Before, old me, would have hated her with every breath. In fact, for awhile I did. I eventually found that this was not good for my health. So slowly, I made myself just... feel indifferent. I dislike her. Don't get me wrong. But I no longer have horrible gut wrenching feelings regarding her, or anyone else. If anything, I feel a little bad for her. Not empathy perse, because I only seem to have empathy for people/situations that I have encountered before so I can directly relate, so not empathy. Just pity.
My daughter? Definately hates liars and bullys. HATES. I've tried to tell her that chanting "liar. liar. liar" everytime a certain kid gets near her in the lunch room isn't going to win her any friends. She doesn't care. "Kids need to know. Lyla is a liar" (name changed for anonimity).
I have in the past run into people in the work situation who upon recognizing my sensitivity, vulnerability and general oddness made sport out of "f*cking with me" - intentionally hurting me for entertainment. Fortunately it has been some years since that happened - But when it did and it had happened more than twice - a well of extreme hatred and loathing sprung inside of me - a rage that almost frightens me.
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