If you reincarnate again - would you want to have autism?

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This. I've often wondered if I'm paying for something in my past life or lives. I feel fine toward it in this life though. Just, as JoelFan said, once is enough.

I just want to know what it feels like to be accepted by most everyone in my life rather than tolerated...

Why mild to moderate autism?

edit: yes

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Yes, because I don't like change.

Well me is me, so yeah, probably.

I could just be saying this because I don't know what it's like and am overblowing how distressing it can be, but I can't imagine a fate worse than caring about fitting in and others' judgments. I wouldn't even want to be reincarnated as more mildly autistic, let alone neurotypical, if it meant that I'd be concerned with that. I'd love to be without my sensory issues and executive function deficits, but if it were keep those and stay autistic or give them up along with my worldview and how I think, I'd even keep those.

No. For me autism is an impairment, not an attribute.

No. Hell, no.

I've learned to accept me, maybe even to like me, but I too wonder what I'm being punished for. It's one of those questions I'd like to ask God.

Worry every waking moment if I'm "normal enough?" Live in terror of being rejected by my spouse and/or losing my kids?? Spend my life stereotyped a sociopath and/or a mass murderer?? Struggle to do/remember things other people take for granted (even while I can spit out streams of useless data)??? Agoraphobia??? Never being able to get people to listen, even when I know that I know what I'm talking about, even when it's a matter of life and death?? Getting called a whore and an adulteress when I haven't even contemplated another man in that way since I met my husband?? All the rest of it???? To spend another lifetime being "never good enough," despite the fact that there's "nothing wrong with me"????

Hell. The. f**k. No.

Just curious how the answers have to do with age.

My young (19) and optimistic daughter says yes.

48 year old tired sceptic me says no.

I'm 39 but I'd have said no at any age. Not just that, but I'd take my chances with a completely different family as well (my mum excluded, but it'd be pretty hard to arrange to have my mum around and literally no other member of my family).

I consider reincarnation a variation on Hell...living over and over...prone to make the same mistakes over and over....but if it's true, I'd not want to be autistic.

I have actually addressed this type of opinion before. If I were to be born again, I would want to be born with Asperger's again.

I personally would like to try something different. I had many vivid memories of living a past life as a older woman with children but have no way to prove it so maybe a popular, NT male? Who knows?

For me when I was young, certainly at 19 - I was absolutely horrified that people would think I was weird. And frankly when I was that age and at least until my mid 20's I didn't make eye contact and I was a lot more socially awkward than I am now. Now only weeks away from turning 60 - I have accepted myself with all my oddities and I have improved a bit on the most debilitating ones. I guess my qualifier would be that if I have another life I'm fine with having mild autism (no worse than what I had in this life) and if I had a more accepting world than the one I knew especially when I was younger and if I had very supportive, devoted, enlightened and intelligent parents who were also very, very rich.

I can imagine worse for sure, but otherwise I agree with you. I wouldn't want to live that way.

No, I don't think so. The fluctuation of my self esteem from having such an illness has caused much of being scorned and looked down upon for the greater part of my life and has taken a serious toll on my ego. Not sure how much this makes sense as probably not many autistics would have such the privilege of being nearly as high functioning as myself in order to have the self esteem for a very high ego, but it's much the case regarding myself. I say the previous statement because the lower functioning one is, the harder it can be to function properly to satisfactory levels, hence why ego may not be as present. For all the good I think of myself, austism will always be the detriment and the noose dangling just above my head, much like a constant contradiction.

It's really hard to say. I don't want to change, I want to stay me, even if that's miserable. I've tried anti-depressants but they change who I am and I hate it. I've lived almost 30 years like this, studying NT behavior, and I can't say they have it very easy, either. It may seem like it, because they fit into what society wants, but there's a lot of pressure to be perfect, they have to hide certain aspects of themselves or face ridicule, they have to fit a mold.
I'd rather be a cat. Maybe a mountain lion or something... I'm just so tired of humans.