Your irrational fears?

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I'm afraid that anything I say or think might come true. For example, if it's too sunny I might say I wish the sun weren't there and then quickly have to repeat a whole bunch of times "I'm just kidding, I don't wish that the sun wasn't there, I want the sun to be there, I don't wish the sun wasn't there, it's a good thing, but not too much of course, I like the sun, I want it to be there, I don't wish the sun wasn't there...." My sister does the same thing (but she's not neurodiverse or autistic).

I'm afraid of balloons too. They're unpredictable and make me anxious. I always cover my ears when I see someone blowing one up. I'm also slightly claustrophobic so I'm afraid of enclosed water slides. The big ones at water parks that you ride in a muli-person tube are okay, but the smaller ones meant for just one person at swimming pools and things make me panic.

I don't know if it counts as irrational, but, like Loki, I'm severely phobic of spiders. I once saw one on the stairway from the basement to the first floor, and crawled out the window well just so I wouldn't have to walk past it (obviously there were probably way more spiders in the window well, but the point is I couldn't see them!) There have been at least two occasions on which I saw a spider either on my bed or on the wall next to it, and have subsequently slept on the floor. It was at my dad's house, and the floor in my bedroom there is linoleum, not carpet (my cat used to pee on the carpet all the time so we just tore it up). In high school, my biology teacher brought a giant wolf spider to class in a container, and when I saw it, I jumped and screamed like I'd been electrocuted, and she had to take it out of the room. Everyone laughed at me.

I'm also very afraid of vomit (emetophobia). I find it extremely disturbing. Watching someone puking on TV makes me deeply uncomfortable in a way I can't quite describe; it goes beyond just fear. I'm not afraid of my own vomit, but have zero ability to deal with someone else's. I despise the movie Pitch Perfect because of one of the characters' frequent vomiting. My sister (who loves the film) didn't tell me it was going to happen before I watched it the first time, and I freaked out and had to leave the room, getting out of visual range and earshot.

Omg... me too! I can handle my own, but when it comes to others... it just bothers me. I freak out and have severe panic attacks when someone throws up. D:

Drains- any kind of drain with the holes/slits over the top of it. Giant hole with a rubber plug- no problem; it's not hiding what it is. The kind with holes or the ones in pools (the boxes that suck in water too) those TERRIFY me.

I swim in lakes instead.

I'm also afraid of balloons. I hate that they get popped randomly and everyone else but me thinks it's the funniest thing they've ever seen. *shrug*

Sometimes if I'm really tired I get worried about natural laws just stopping. Like what if gravity just uppped itself to 11 and we all get squished. Or what if oxygen suddenly combusted and we all died. I know these are silly but ... there they are.

I have an irrational fear (I think it is anyway, I hope it is) about oxygen. I'm afraid it'll run out, what with there being more CO2, ozone and carbon-monoxide. I've had a couple of nightmares about it and they were absolutely horrific!

Spiders and needles. I'm not really scared of needles themselves. In fact, I have a syringe sitting on the counter right now. I just faint when I get stuck with one, which is rather scary in itself.

Don't know if these are irrational or not, but these are my worse fears:-

Vomiting
Nobody likes vomiting, but I have a fear that is an affliction to my daily life. I cannot stand vomiting, and I am so scared of getting a vomiting bug myself. When I am in an environment where there is a vomiting bug, I go all OCD suddenly, like repeatedly washing my hands in boiling hot water and almost burning my skin, and refusing to touch anything without washing my hands again, and putting on several masks to the point where I can't breathe properly. Yes, it's a pretty disabling fear.

Snow
I can't stand it when it snows. Nobody seems to understand this fear, but I think I am afraid of the snow because I have been laughed at before when almost slipping on an unavoidable patch of ice, and that started off my public social anxiety. I now have ice-grippers to put on the bottom of my boots if it snows, but I still really hate the snow because of the disruption it causes, and the way everybody freaks out, and I just hate the ground being covered by snow. I like being able to see the grass.

Spiders
Yes, this is a common one in most people. I hate spiders. I hate the way they move really fast, and just the way they look. They are ugly creatures, and all they do is make webs to catch flies, even though flies aren't as dumb as they think they are, and beautiful insects like butterflies and moths get caught in their webs instead. I just cannot stand spiders. Why all those legs?

Social embarrassment
This is more about being out in public. I hate being shown up and judged or laughed at. I'm scared of making a mistake because I think everyone's going to laugh at me or think I'm stupid, even though rationally nobody probably even notices, but I still get afraid that they might. This might be related to social anxiety. When I'm out in public (more so when I'm on my own), I like to really blend into the background and not be too noticed by strangers. I just want to be noticed as a background figure, and no more.

Death
I do have a fear of death. I don't like the feeling of it being ''final'', and that nothing will bring you back. I fear losing my loved ones in an unexpected death, like a plane crash. When the Malaysian plane got shot down a few months back, I saw in the papers some pictures of it, and I felt so sorry for all those people and their families left behind, that I began getting panic attacks from being overwhelmed from too much empathy. Also the same with the shooting at the Sandy Hook Elementary school. It seems to freak me out so much. Also I am scared to die myself, and I often worry about how I'm going to die. Will I die by drowning? Will I get brutally stabbed by a murderer? It makes me very wary, and I have a feeling that in many years to come this fear will become so bad that I will end up hiding in a bullet-proof bomb shelter type of thing to avoid all accidents and risks.

Add me to the "Drains" list! I love taking a long soak in a bubble bath, but as soon as I pull the plug and that big open black hole of a drain is in front of me I have to get out of the tub right away. Something about having that black hole there sucking all the water down into it..... it's hard to explain but I feel like *I* am going to get sucked down the drain! Or my soul is!

My other one is passing either over or under a bridge with a train going by at the same time. I always fear that either there will be an earthquake at the same time, or the bridge will collapse, with me passing under it or over it. It is much worse when walking as it takes several minutes to walk the length of the bridge. I used to hyperventilate if I had to be somewhere and didn't have time to stop walking and/or it looked like it would be a very long train! If I wasn't in a rush I would stop at the side of the bridge till the train was done. In a vehicle it's not so bad, it only takes a few seconds to clear the "danger zone"!

Fear of loud sounds/certain pitches
These can make me experience pain, ear ringing, distinct headache, vestibular (balance) confusion.

Crossing roads with several moving cars.

Have been afraid of heights as a kid, now mainly outside past certain feet (especially near or on a balcony or railing)

I used to break out in a sweat at the sight of a syringe (don't know why that hasn't happened for a long time, even tho i still hate needles) and when i saw a spider, especially if there was no one around to remove it for me. However, because i couldn't always cover them with a bowl for someone else to deal with, i eventually made myself practice using a jug and a piece of card to catch them ...so i could put them outside by myself ~ alot of trembling later i got the hang of it, tho i still can't pick one up with my hand coz i hate how their legs feel on my skin.
I have also always hated the thought of being attacked with a knife ~ i don't use any knives bigger than a veg knife at home, and i hate eg film scenes showing knife-related violence...even operations, coz it really doesn't matter who's doing the cutting. My most irrational phobia tho has to be closed doors ~ i can be in someone's office with the door shut (because they're usually demanding my attention), but i feel trapped if the room doors at home are shut ...having a 10 inch gap is ok for a sense of privacy in eg the bedroom, but i don't like having a loo door at all ~ i guess i'm just a tad claustrophobic.

With me it was the opposite ~ i didn't like the plug being pulled while i was still inside because i thought the water and germs sitting inside the pipe would mix with the water going down the plug hole and thereby find their way up into the bath ...maybe bringing a creepy crawlie (or some alien thing) up as well! That's not why i stopped using a bath tho :-)

That sounds terrifying dreams! Glad I'm not alone in the fear but very sorry you have had bad dreams of them!

Yes! This is definitely something about it- it's that it eats everything, or tries to. Water, air gurgling, rubber toys, washcloths. It's like a greedy monster or something.

Oh yes, this one for me too. I can put myself into a silent panic thinking about my own death and the inevitability of it. The fact that it's 100% guaranteed to happen and there's nothing I can do about it scares the crap out of me. Thinking about the possibility of being reincarnated as a new person as soon as I die helps ease the fear a little bit, but I'm not even sure how much I believe in the idea of reincarnation.

Thank you! They were truly horrible. I too am glad to have found someone who can relate to this fear, though.

I'm afraid of going anywhere I haven't been to before, most arthropods, and animatronics.