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Both myself and others. Yes.

Kind of. Whenever I look at my posts here or my myspace it feels like someone else made them.

Yes, I do.

It's useful. It's how I make sure I don't say or do weird or stupid things that make me look abnormal.

Count me in. It's the main reason I can't smoke pot - it makes me watch and analyze myself to the point where I want to rip my head off to turn it off. Argh. Not that I mind not smoking pot - it's also frustrating that I do this on a constant basis. If there was any way of turning off this facility, I wish I knew it.

Yes me too, and usually after observing myself in social situations, like you I always analyze what transpired. Much more pleasant if I do well.

Like yesterday I had to go to my friends sisters, (I had asked her to borrow something and her sister had one, just my luck)well my friend practically made me go even though I resisted valiantly.

In any case I did fairly well, until the end when I threw out the comment "Gimme a call" (I should ad here there her sister is an acquaintance of 20 years) and her sister replied "I do but you never call back"

What does one say to that?

Well, I said "Yeah... I know" and we left, and I thought... wow, what an idiot I am.

You would think after 40 years I could get it right, I just need more time to think than a spontaneous conversation allows, otherwise I always look like some a-hole.

I get that too. I know that I wrote it, but it is as if it were someone else, or moreso a character of me, even though I always try to be as trueful and honest to myself as I can while saying anything about myself. Kinda gets the mind going in circles.

I found that the only way I could control myself was to... how would you put it? Split my personality into certain factions. And appoint some part of myself to 'hold the reins'.
Then I set a side for the day to the outside world.

Sorry, tricky analogy.

Lets see... I've got...
a) Haer'dalis (Suave, deep voice, the Humansk side of me)
b) Dale ('Tis me, quiet, unassuming.)
c) Maw (The loud bit of me)
d) Beserker (Havn't seen him in a while)
e) Overseer (Dude with the reins)
f) Dredger (Dark, angry, pretty Gothy. Think Testament from Guilty Gear)
.......

Sorry, getting a little narcisstic.

That's interesting - that could easily have been written by me. I never knew that was an Aspergers' Syndrome thing; I just thought it was me.

I am, especially if I tend to obsess about myself.

Just as long as it doesn't develop int MPD or something. Means you're going in as someone who... How do you say it...? Knows what they're doing sort of?
You know your own personality and what you're going to act like. You don't have to change on the spot. You've got a good idea there.
Probably easier for us too seeing we have experience ans self-observers.
Don't think I'd like to try though. I'd end up with so many that I just plain don't want to be.

My mind (hell, my soul) is fragmented into five pieces, so I can see where Haerdalis is coming from. Although, in my case there is no "overseer" independent from the rest of the system.

In no particular order..

1) Cold, calculating, consummately pragmatic, brilliant in a serial killer sort of way, could happily torture the overwhelming majority of humans to death without a single pang of conscience. (This is the shadow...)

2) As #1, but warmer and far less ruthless... sadism and cruelty is limited to those who deserve it. Kindness is given to those who deserve it. Will protect the innocent (the "lils", as I often say) and those she is close to with all the enthusiasm of a mother bear defending her young. Primary holder of the code of honor. (This is the most powerful piece, and is the one primarly responsible for keeping #1 at bay.)

3) Intellectual curiosity given form. All must be known. All must be understood. All must be remembered. Neutral and largely inured to emotion, except elation when everything falls into place in an intellectual sense, and irritation when it does not. (#3 gets along with #2 in a Thoth to Ma'at sort of way, and dislikes #1.)

4) Friendly, very extraverted, irreverent and silly, the source of all things Toilet Humor. Also the seat of libido. (Gets along with all four others, even #1 oddly enough. As concerns #4 and #1, consider it the princess of light/king of darkness dynamic.)

5) Irascible and very judgmental. Perfectionist. Extremely intolerant of BS. What little artistic sense I have flows from this one. Tends to beat people over the head with the code of honor, while #2 prefers to lead by example rather than preaching at people.

Maybe it's not such a bad idea to give this a try...

me too.

i've always felt like jane goodal (can't spell last name, lol).... watching all these gorillas in the mist...

i'm constantly analyzing myself and those around me. when i think of a person i don't call them by their name but by how i identify them.

ex. oh, there's that person that never stops laughing.

i get so stressed out when i over analyze myself.

That happens to me all the time.Probably why it takes me a roughly a half-hour to post a reply