This is Torturing Me - Asexuality and ASD
You don't need to gain weight. You can get healthier without doing that, e.g. doing some cardio. For tall people like yourself, it's easier on the body in the long run as you get older if you remain light. A lot of tall heavy people get serious back issues and joint problems with age. I personally love running, it is really good for you (providing you don't overdo it) and I love looking at maps planning where I'm going to run and going to new places, or unusual places most pedestrians don't visit.
I take Sertraline myself (150mg/day). I never noticed a drop in labido, in fact I was never informed of it as a side-effect when I was prescribed it! I think perhaps I have had a small drop, however I just attributed it to ageing, rather than thinking "wow. I suddenly have far less labido." I guess it effects everyone differently. Take it easy going off it. Over Christmas as my routine was changed visiting friends and family I forgot to take it for three days in a row before I realized, and my withdrawal symptoms were pretty severe. I had no idea what was wrong with me as I hadn't realized I was forgetting to take it.
Being disinterested in procreation is not the same as being asexual. Since there are plenty of non procreational sex activities. Even amongst heterosexual vanillas.
I'm asexual and ASD and I get a lot of people disturbed by it. You can betcha it was rough in public school to. I've been harassed at previous jobs for it. I never mention it but eventually people start to wonder. I've even had someone who accused me of being a closet pedophile and/or animal rapist for lack of interest in people ( i draw a lot of lemurs, lol). I've had several guys chronically consult me on the how and when to find the ladies, I kind of just played along. I guess my lack of prowess reeks; I'm too nice. The funny thing is I'm generally quiet, but I have no problem talking to women because I don't think about messing with them.
I've tried both way's in college, gay and straight, but I'm genuinely off put by people. I think it's kinda funny how people don't realize there are these common instinct's like kissing that's just a given, but when I did it I tried so hard to resist the urge to throw up, hah. The tricky part now is to refrain from being cynical about it I suppose. I have my own rendition of the squeeze machine that get's the job done (lock your cock in a sock, and it get's as hard as a rock), but I just don't see what is so attractive about apes, let alone homo saps (lol).
If we were beautiful creatures we wouldn't have to wear clothes, hell, we've sold our soles to shoe company's Women can't even give birth naturally, not to mention baby's are the ugliest infant's in the animal kingdom. Maybe I just think about it to much, but I don't turn on. I'd have no issue if people didn't have an issue about it. The thing's that make me happy are taking a hike off trail in the mountains and smoking a bowl to some good old fashioned painting
Sex is just used to produce offspring if one is not having a offspring then what is the point? This society is so caught up in some animalistic ritual that seeps throughout society corrupting it to value the new god of sex. Ultimately that is what sex is today, it is a religion that is used to add value to our meaningless life. Ask anyone why they do many things they do and it is all for sex.
Oh look, another open misogynist. Thanks for helping to keep WP such a friendly site. Asshole-friendly, that is.
I'm not going to defend Misogynists as I am pro Womens rights, but you could ask him why he thinks this way and maybe you can change his perspective. Seems like a lot of misogynists only really know women in their immediate family and don't really have a damn clue why other women do the things they do. Lashing out at him like this doesn't do anyone any good. One of the biggest problems people like us face is letting things boil inside ourselves even if they are unfounded without the perspectives of others. I'm guilty of this as you may already know. I would probe him myself, but I'm really bad at organizing my thoughts.
Whatever. I've quit pornography + masturbation/ejaculation cold turkey as of yesterday/2 days ago as per my doctors advice. I'm just experimenting now. Let's see what happens. I've never done this before.
Well it's official; I'll be off Sertraline for good in about 5 days. The first time in 10 years that this has happened. I wonder what will happen to me within the coming months.
If after a few weeks or so I still don't "feel" anything I will only have left to assume that I'm hardwired with an incredibly low sex drive and it's NOT something I can change. I mean, even people with body issues have more of a sex drive than me so I don't think it's me being conscious of being underweight that's an issue.
I have FETISH-es that I'm extremely attracted to, but not the actual person persay. It's weird. I make no effort for a young man of my age. I never go out to bars or clubs. I'm unmotivated and stay at home most of the time. Unemployed. Dropped out of school twice. I don't really like people. Maybe that plays a role.
I'm not jealous of other men like I used to be a few years back.
Now I'm running with the whole "I don't really give a s**t if I die a virgin" quite frankly.
Oh look, another open misogynist. Thanks for helping to keep WP such a friendly site. Asshole-friendly, that is.
I could care less about your opinion.
I have deep resentment for women in particular due to them being the SOURCE of me coming into this world at less than 100%. With my ASD, anxiety and whatnot. I hate over sympathy for life. People these days think any sort of life is worth living.
I told my mom flat out that I will always resent her, if only a bit and not 100%.
I have ZERO qualms about dying alone or without children. I don't think I could bring a child into this world.