Agemaki wrote:
Well, one proposed theory of autism, Intense World Theory, suggests that autistics are more emotional.
Personally I have always been very sensitive. My melt downs as a child were caused by a hyper-sensitivity to stressful situations. As an adult I have learned to insulate myself emotionally in order to avoid these situations. For this reason people have said that I sometimes seem emotionless or that it is difficult to tell what I am feeling. (Even though their emotions are often painfully invasive to me.) This is merely a coping mechanism, however. Around people who I trust I am more emotionally open. There are a lot of stereotypes about autism and sometimes even professionals fall prey to them. We are all different but if you read the DSM criteria for ASD, you will notice that no where does it say that the individual must be unable to cry.
I can definitely identify with what you're saying, and being that I'm a big believer in the Intense World Theory, I can see how it would apply to emotions as well, and not just sensory perception. I was prone to emotional outbursts as a child, and due to the negative reactions I got from this, I started bottling up my emotions instead, but I eventually found that this just led to me having worse meltdowns. I still do it somewhat, and it's hard not to since it's not socially acceptable for me to express my emotions in their most primal form (i.e. by breaking things, shouting at the top of my lungs, etc.), but at least I am more open about expressing how I feel verbally, even if it's in a manner that's hard for other people to understand, as I often have trouble articulating my emotions into words.
But yeah, I have been told that I seem "cold", and much of the time it's not because I feel emotionless, but because I don't want to bother other people with what or how I'm feeling. Either that, or I'm absorbed in something and I don't want to be bothered. Either way, I wish people would interpret it to mean "go away", but people like to pry, and when they do, it just makes the situation worse because I'll get annoyed with them.