Angnix wrote:
There seems to be lots of evidence that I have some sort of ASD, but.... I still doubt. As a kid, I had severe meltdowns, social skills so bad that they put me in counseling for it, and I memorized bird field guides. As an adult, I still have meltdowns and even a couple of shutdowns before, still crazy about birds, I stim, my husband is constantly trying to get me to "put myself in other's shoes" using that terminology with little knowledge of AS, etc...
But I look people in the eyes... and little things like that. There was even an attempt to diagnose me but I still doubt. But if it is not AS what's wrong? Do you still doubt?
Go to the doctor and find out. Having AS doesn't have to change your life. I was diagnosed in middle age and nothing changed for me except it made me understand some things about myself that I didn't know before. It helped me realize why I had meltdowns and that it wasn't temper, nor my fault. I can now recognize when one is coming on, and I know what brings them on and I can either avoid it or just walk away and get some alone time.
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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
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