Edenthiel wrote:
Oh my gosh THANK YOU!! !
I've always been exceedingly self conscious of my speaking patterns and voice and wondered why I *don't* vocally stim. I just mentioned it on another thread. But, I was raised in a very strict household & my mom has sensory issues including auditory, so I was not allowed to stim. By that I mean I was spanked & shamed for disobeying if I did verbally stim and I learned how to not do that final step of speaking out loud. The voice, the words are there in my head and it's horribly, terribly distracting. Song bits, repeated words, repeated 'sounds'. I can force it to stop when I need to for a short while but it's exhausting. The rest of the time it's like someone else is in there making noise, but I recognize it as me & my brain processes making it. It's *not* the same as say, having a song stuck in my head.
that must have been tough
i was never punished for doing aspie stuff but i'm really insecure of my speaking voice (probably because i had a speech impediment as a kid) and also of annoying other people. i have the same type of things loop in my head too! its mostly 2-3 words in sequence, 1-2 words of gibberish, fragments of songs, or short sound bits. i'm glad that someone else can relate.