Do You Get Days...

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I haven't been able to figure out my only IM system yet. I've got a whole list of incoming requests that I haven't been able to respond to. They shouldn't trust someone my age with technology.

Everything hurts me everyday; I guess I don’t have what some would call “normal” or “good” days mentally, but then this is indeed my “normal” days – that’s funny.

Mentally, I lash out at others; obsessive thoughts of cutting anyone and everyone down in the hopes of them feeling the pain they cause me; it drove me to hospital. The thoughts are beyond lucid and furtive scheming – but then, I really don’t want anyone to feel my pain. Hence my one fear of losing control of my actions and lopping heads….

I have no outlet for the massive amount of hate I hold within: don’t be too perturbed by lashing out verbally to anything and everything that annoys you…knowing where and when you stand is perhaps the greatest feeling I’ve known. Knowing the reason for your outburst is perhaps even greater still…no matter if it’s during a period of mental sensitivity or not.

I think that it is really common in Aspies. Especially if we are already overwhelmed, over stimulated, or tired or hungry.

We just seem to have such a hard time "regulating" our emotions. The slightest thing can turn us into walking numb zombies, or plate throwing wacko's!

I was Dx'ed as BP because of the highs and lows... but really I don't think I am, nor does anyone in my family. The highs and lows just respond too much to events that are ocuring and not overall "mood".

Yeah...I am like that alot..epecially lately....(i don't feel much hate)..but overwhealming mental fatigue....thin skinned-ness....
On the other forum where I post..if anyone were to comment at all..since that is the forum where I write my blog and am most used to airng my mental anguish and whatnot...they would tell me to go out and get some exercise..Lately, i have been coping with art therapy...
But that does not keepme from being extra twitchy and irritable for some reason.

Almost everyday this week has been like that. But not as bad today so I think the negative streak is ending . Meaning yes I do get them a lot more than most people know
If you are feeling like this now I hope you feel better soon, vulnerable days like that stink.