Poll - Do you cry when your depressed?

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Do you cry when your depressed?
Yes 52%  52%  [ 23 ]
No 48%  48%  [ 21 ]
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12 Oct 2015, 10:44 am

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...but the solution is to create a another use through command line as the GUI was completely broke. Than log into Linux and copy user data from one user to another. It was a massive pain but I fixed it and I am doing ok I guess, the above got me to stop crying but I am still depressed.


I'll start by saying that I've met a fair number of certified and self-labeled technical people over the years and maybe - *maybe* - one in twenty would know what you are talking about. And maybe half that have actually done such a thing. So while you may be feeling bad about isolation, please do recognize that you have some rare, and in today's world, very impressive talents. (update: referring to the Windows fix only, not state of mind)

Regarding loneliness, isolation & depression: It bites. I tend to stay up far too late to fend off the coming day. Problem is, the more sleep deprived a person is, the less chemically balanced they are and the more pronounced depression tends to be. But at that point wanting to get more sleep seems beyond reach. I've made it this far by just forcing myself to go to bed early if I notice I've stayed up late X nights in a row. And then a day or two later I can handle the cause of the depression far better. Taking a walk each day helps, too. These strategies don't solve the problem, but they use your body to stop it from being artificially overwhelming.

What aspect(s) of social isolation get to you the most?

Oh, ob-answer: Yes, I cry when I'm depressed. I let it go all the way to feeling empty & worn out as that seems to be it's purpose; to let out all that bottled up yuckiness. Usually a day later I begin to feel better.


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12 Oct 2015, 11:10 am

Um, guys...the OP is in a really bad state of mind, I know s/he asked for our depression experiences in the title of the thread, but I think it's a bit more serious than that...


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12 Oct 2015, 11:17 am

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Um, guys...the OP is in a really bad state of mind, I know s/he asked for our depression experiences in the title of the thread, but I think it's a bit more serious than that...


Its true, I seriously considering just giving up and being institutionalized somewhere for longer period of time than I have before. I simply can't find the energy to cook, shower, shave and take care of basic needs. The feeling of rejection stings much deeper than it has before, nothing feels worth it. Meds and therapy are crap, I don't know what I hope to accomplish with this thread, I haven't slept since Friday night and I was about to call crisis last night. I am a mess and I don't know what to do to fix it, I feel I am beyond hope.

I mean yeah the computer thing distracted me for a bit but now that its fixed I am just back crying again. I am not even tired despite being up for so long, I might just go to bed soon for lack of motivation if anything. This is the worse depression ever, I lost friends I totally loved like my brothers and sisters and I feel no one understands. People just think I should get over it but I can't knowing I let them... and myself down.



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12 Oct 2015, 11:57 am

dcj123 wrote:
Joe90 wrote:
Um, guys...the OP is in a really bad state of mind, I know s/he asked for our depression experiences in the title of the thread, but I think it's a bit more serious than that...


Its true, I seriously considering just giving up and being institutionalized somewhere for longer period of time than I have before. I simply can't find the energy to cook, shower, shave and take care of basic needs. The feeling of rejection stings much deeper than it has before, nothing feels worth it. Meds and therapy are crap, I don't know what I hope to accomplish with this thread, I haven't slept since Friday night and I was about to call crisis last night. I am a mess and I don't know what to do to fix it, I feel I am beyond hope.

I mean yeah the computer thing distracted me for a bit but now that its fixed I am just back crying again. I am not even tired despite being up for so long, I might just go to bed soon for lack of motivation if anything. This is the worse depression ever, I lost friends I totally loved like my brothers and sisters and I feel no one understands. People just think I should get over it but I can't knowing I let them... and myself down.


Just curious...does this happen on a cyclic basis? Also, what harm is there in calling the crisis center?


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12 Oct 2015, 12:32 pm

a long, long time ago i used to cry when i was depressed, but now it's just a dead-inside feeling and i couldn't cry even if i wanted to.


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12 Oct 2015, 1:02 pm

I also cry when I'm depressed. Hope you feel better soon, dcj123. *HUGS if you want them*


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12 Oct 2015, 8:07 pm

Why would I insinuate that you're violent. That doesn't make sense. You've shown no evidence of being violent.

I'm saying that one should be free to pursue one's desires as long as it's not harmful to self and others.



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12 Oct 2015, 8:13 pm

I cry all the time and sometimes even when I'm not depressed for seemingly no reason at all. I'm an emotional girl, but I keep smiling!
Hey, dcj123, I know how you feel. I guess the only thing I can think of to help you is to pray for you and send you lots of love. :heart: :heart:


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12 Oct 2015, 10:57 pm

I've shed some tears in my lower moments.



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12 Oct 2015, 11:24 pm

I cried alot when I was depressed.


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12 Oct 2015, 11:29 pm

I cry when I'm depressed. I did when I had my first episode of depression, anxiety and psychosis. I still do from time to time. I didn't feel accepted by my mum at the time. The Summer of 1998 was a horrible summer. I didn't feel safe at home, because I felt that I couldn't be myself. I made up stupid scenarios in my mind that children were being taught about their bodies and gender in general. Little boys and girls were in a daycare and they were told to sing on a five scale note from low high what their special body part was. If they were able to do that, they got a treat. I had to do something to keep my mind occupied. I wasn't allowed to be myself or enjoy my special interests that summer.


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13 Oct 2015, 6:52 am

I've never had clinical depression per se, but when I feel sad or angry I do cry.

dcj123: Don't give up. Find a therapist or counselor who can get you the help you need. If you're feeling suicidal, call a suicide hotline. Keep believing that you are worth it and that you can get through this. :heart:



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13 Oct 2015, 8:43 am

Edenthiel wrote:
Just curious...does this happen on a cyclic basis? Also, what harm is there in calling the crisis center?


I don't know how to answer this to be honest, I have been rejected before and got depressed over it but I rarely get depressed for no reason. If I had to answer I guess I would yes and no, I have been suicidal and depressed before but never to this level of not being able to function. There is not immediate harm in calling crisis but my doctor has made it clear that if I continue this behavior she will say I can no longer live on my own and has threatened to place me in a group home setting. I don't want this as I enjoy having the freedom of independence.

Calling crisis hurts me in the long run, rather I lose my housing or my financial independence, either way its bad. Also sorry I didn't get back with you sooner, I saw your post when you posted it and fell asleep due to being up for days and days and slept until now.

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I also cry when I'm depressed. Hope you feel better soon, dcj123. *HUGS if you want them*


Hugs are welcome but I received them from my ex friends all the time, they are apparently meaningless.

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Why would I insinuate that you're violent. That doesn't make sense. You've shown no evidence of being violent.

I'm saying that one should be free to pursue one's desires as long as it's not harmful to self and others.


Right, sorry I guess I am applying what people say about me offline to my online life. I apologize, I hope I haven't angered you, I was just confused. Everywhere I go people insinuate I am violent and I have yet to figure how I communicate that, I don't normally get angry, if I could figure out what causes that I would gladly change it.



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13 Oct 2015, 9:19 am

That's all right, my friend.

I hope you feel better soon.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Please don't do anything to screw up your financial independence.



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13 Oct 2015, 5:19 pm

No. I don't think I've cried in 35 or so years.



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13 Oct 2015, 5:58 pm

dcj123 wrote:
Edenthiel wrote:
Just curious...does this happen on a cyclic basis? Also, what harm is there in calling the crisis center?


There is not immediate harm in calling crisis but my doctor has made it clear that if I continue this behavior she will say I can no longer live on my own and has threatened to place me in a group home setting. I don't want this as I enjoy having the freedom of independence.
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Calling crisis hurts me in the long run, rather I lose my housing or my financial independence, either way its bad. Also sorry I didn't get back with you sooner, I saw your post when you posted it and fell asleep due to being up for days and days and slept until now.
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Everywhere I go people insinuate I am violent and I have yet to figure how I communicate that, I don't normally get angry, if I could figure out what causes that I would gladly change it.

I was worried, but I am glad you got some sleep and are okay (-ish)!

IMO, the situation your doctor has enforced on you is wrong. They are "making it clear" that if you show need of counseling, you lose independence. Yet how are you to grow and maintain that independence without ongoing assistance, if needed? It feels to me like you are being set up to fail, and I think that it is unethical (assuming I read that right). Are there other doctors &/or anonymous suicide or crisis hot-lines you might call? It's just so unfair to expect you to *choose* not to reach out for help when you need it.


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