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btbnnyr
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29 Oct 2015, 9:24 am

I have problems with idea of people finding identity in medical label, esp if they say they are autistic without diagnosis.


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29 Oct 2015, 9:41 am

Sorry, I find it really difficult to read long posts but this part stuck out for me:

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Why is this happening to me yet again? Why do I have this stupid reaction over and over again to such trivial things. It was just a woman in a car park who bumped her car door against mine. There was no damage though she might at least have said sorry. Instead she just walked off. And thanks to my instantaneous, stupidly over sensitive fight or flight response, I’m left standing there shaking wildly. At least I somehow make it home before exploding into tears.


It was a long time ago and well before I got diagnosed. I was living with someone and they opened up a tin of chocolate sponge pudding upside down. I just couldn't handle it. I had a complete meltdown and ended up cutting my wrists and taking an overdose. I actually ended up in hospital.

I didn't do it because they opened the tin upside down. I did it because it was the only way I could stop myself from thinking.

It seems really silly to me now when I look back at that incident but at the time I was completely out of control.

That kind of thing hasn't happened since thankfully because I have learned that it doesn't really matter which way you open a tin/can.


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05 Nov 2015, 11:55 am

Thank you for all the responses.

btbnnyr wrote:
I have problems with idea of people finding identity in medical label, esp if they say they are autistic without diagnosis.


I'm not looking for an "identity"; that's partly what my writing was about and I have never said I am autistic. I have spent a good deal of my life being deeply ashamed of the possibility that I might be.

I do however have a big "problem" of my own at the moment, namely that my local health authority (part of the NHS in the UK) has no diagnostic services for adults, and seems to be unable to decide whether or not they will provide funding for a referral to another area. My GP thinks such a referral would be a good idea but he doesn't hold the purse strings.



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05 Nov 2015, 1:47 pm

btbnnyr wrote:
I have problems with idea of people finding identity in medical label, esp if they say they are autistic without diagnosis.


Group affiliation is a central part of identity and its formation, hence I would argue that everyone writing here whether diagnosed or not is experiencing autism as an identity. We are interacting in an autism community and within autism context, instead of not doing so.

People have generally a very biased way of looking at themselves. Some argue here that people can't have true insight into whether they are autistic or not, but could it be that they can't neither have true insight into other social and psychological aspects of themselves...?