If your Autism/Aspergers was suddenly removed

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Interesting question! So I take it to mean, ASD still exists as a diagnosis, but I have learned to mask it well enough that my psychiatrist officially declares me neurotypical.

How would I feel? Basically, that I deserve a nice shiny Oscar statue on my shelf, for my brilliant acting talents. Because that's really all it would amount to. Carefully training myself not to be me, but to be this other person that society deems more acceptable. Looking people in the eye, speaking up, smiling, pretending to be fascinated by a wide variety of neurotypical interests - which I've spent hours studying (despite finding them boring), so I can converse knowledgeably on those topics, and fit in with my peers.

I also would need a cabinet full of pharmaceuticals, that would magically help me to focus on things I find boring, sleep at night, not be overwhelmed by sounds, lights, or movements... Oh wait. If I need all those meds to pass for NT, then I'm not actually NT. So, I guess somehow I'm managing all this without meds.

Okay, so now I want an Olympic medal in addition to my Oscar - because that is a feat of physical endurance and sheer, stubborn refusal to give in to pain, exhaustion, and sensory overload. Plus, I would like a Nobel Peace Prize for smiling calmly through it all, instead of having a meltdown and upsetting the people around me.

So I guess I'd have a lot of awards, for enduring high levels of misery, and successfully pretending to be something I'm not. I'm just not really sure what the point of that would be.

It is an interesting question though... It helps me to realize that being happy is more important than conforming. I certainly would like to be functional, in terms of having a job and living independently, but in terms of how I spend my free time, I'd rather do stuff I genuinely enjoy, rather than trying to appear NT.

If someone is going to remove my autism diagnosis they have to come with another explanation explaining my symptoms and in that case it does not matter for me as long as I get the accomodations and support I need.
But up until now every professional I saw agreed that I am autistic (clinical psychologist who diagnosed me first, psychiatrist who diagnosed me to receive disability, doctor from disability, another clinical psychologist I went to because I feel symptoms I thought were not autism but diagnosed me again with autism (where I had rather wished a solid explanation about symptoms I feel which are not autism) and now since august I am seeing another psychiatrist who did not diagnose me, but says I am autistic from the beginning).
But if someone removes autism diagnosis and explain symptoms better with another diagnosis I don't mind as long as I get support, because I need it.

Anyone declaring me free of all neurological diagnoses' would be either deliberately lying or quite mistaken. If this happens officially, I'd get a second opinion. I've been diagnosed with something since the age of two.

If my autism diagnosis was simply replaced with another one, it probably wouldn't affect my life that much.

If my diagnosis is suddenly removed, nothing happens.

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