What Does Neurotypical Society Want From Us?

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They want to remove any kind of divergence from society. It's human nature to hate and fear all things that are different.

I'm kinda curious......I see threads like this all the time. It seems to be an NT vs Autism thing.

Yet, even here, I see people say things like 'You can't be aspie, you have a job." or "You can't be autistic because you're married."

At what point is the 'us' vs 'them' thing going too far?

I get the feeling most people just want me to act normal, and not cause problems.

What they want from us, I don't know. What they want from me? That I behave normally despite my difference. If my ASD makes certain things impossible like prolonged human contact I just need to man up. Nobody will cut me any slack because I'm a young able male and autism is just a difference, not a disability.

Many want us to not exist in the first place.

I would like to just be me and not be noticed.

I keep telling people my mask is very deceptive. It's a lifetime of just trying to blend in. It's a complete inability to describe what's inside unless I can reference something else.

It's like nobody believes me until I crash and burn. And, by that time, what the hell?

Here's me:
Someone else: How was your day?
Me: Alright, nuttin' big

Meanwhile, I've worked for three days almost straight, fell down stairs, dropped and broken things, people shoving me around in crowded places until I'm ready to explode, the body is shaking from lack of rest or food or both. nBut, nuttin' big.....

And then when I do try to tell them, it get's blown off. Even here I have to accept some responsibility for not being able to communicate properly. No matter what, unless I'm completely destroyed (Meltdown, collapse, suicide attempt, complete breakdown) I am always going to be in show pony mode. It was beat into me as a kid and it will not be broken.

At this point, I just want to be alone, only worrying about society when I have to be out in it.
I've given up on people as a whole, and I think, myself to a great degree.

It just ain't in me to make or keep friends. I've learned to deal with it.