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10 Jun 2016, 7:44 pm

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I developed PTSD due to various events in my past so a LOT lol but I am also thankful as the person I am growing into from the darkness and sharp edges is ten times what I would've been if I had not had such a wilderness to unravel! A lot of colourful memories mixed in with bleak stretches, it just means I appreciate the path I am following a lot more and hope to fill however long I have left with a more meaningful and lighter substance of existence! University is a pretty bad topic for me cause my own foray into it went to crap but I try to be happy for other folk who have better experiences, it is hard for me to be reminded of it though, it was my ticket out and opportunity to discover myself, I guess I did but about fifteen years worth of self-analyzing and maturing rolled into a short time period is quite intense!

I kind of had a similar experience, but in the end loved my university experience despite (because of????) the stuff I went through. I just am glad for a better understanding of myself. I'm glad you seem to be getting a sense of perspective on it all! :)



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10 Jun 2016, 9:31 pm

I'd say pretty much everything, since I live in the same place where I grew up, and live next door to my parents, I see constant and pervasive reminders of my past. The only escape I have from it is the internet, and there are plenty of bad reminders on the internet too. It feels like there is nowhere I can go without being reminded of something bad.



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06 Jul 2016, 9:24 pm

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I find that stereotypically low-class things remind me negatively of my past because they remind me of the people who made fun of me. (Strangely enough, they weren't poor, they were rich although they acted really ratchet.)

For some reason, bad or cheap food reminds me of this fear of mine.



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06 Jul 2016, 10:58 pm

Anything sports related. It was always like I'd committed a crime against nature for being unathletic.



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07 Jul 2016, 12:37 am

Parents verbally or physically abusing their autistic like children for having meltdowns, toileting accidents or not acting whatever their narrow definition of normal is.


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I find that stereotypically low-class things remind me negatively of my past because they remind me of the people who made fun of me. (Strangely enough, they weren't poor, they were rich although they acted really ratchet.)

It has led to some weird fears. For example, tomorrow, I'll go on a vacation to the countryside, and part of me fears that there won't be any Internet, which isn't really a weird fear, but I have this weird fear of this vacation because it feels "low-class" and therefore dirty in my mind. You see, I live in a highly classist society. I didn't know that for the first 14 years of my life, but in high school, I learned that it was and I unfortunately have learned to think in a classist manner.

Here's a page that explains it well:

http://www.angelfire.com/md2/dcexperien ... fined.html

Also, strangely enough, people used to laugh at me for being too posh and not the other way around, especially when it came to my speech.



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I find that stereotypically low-class things remind me negatively of my past because they remind me of the people who made fun of me. (Strangely enough, they weren't poor, they were rich although they acted really ratchet.)

It has led to some weird fears. For example, tomorrow, I'll go on a vacation to the countryside, and part of me fears that there won't be any Internet, which isn't really a weird fear, but I have this weird fear of this vacation because it feels "low-class" and therefore dirty in my mind. You see, I live in a highly classist society. I didn't know that for the first 14 years of my life, but in high school, I learned that it was and I unfortunately have learned to think in a classist manner.

Here's a page that explains it well:

http://www.angelfire.com/md2/dcexperien ... fined.html

Also, strangely enough, people used to laugh at me for being too posh and not the other way around, especially when it came to my speech.
Also, I'm really nervous about that there might not be Internet.



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23 Jul 2016, 1:04 am

Anytime I see a YMCA I'm reminded of a summer vacation nearly 30 years ago when I would come home with bruises on my forehead from self injury brought on from severe meltdowns.


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I find that stereotypically low-class things remind me negatively of my past because they remind me of the people who made fun of me. (Strangely enough, they weren't poor, they were rich although they acted really ratchet.)

It has led to some weird fears. For example, tomorrow, I'll go on a vacation to the countryside, and part of me fears that there won't be any Internet, which isn't really a weird fear, but I have this weird fear of this vacation because it feels "low-class" and therefore dirty in my mind. You see, I live in a highly classist society. I didn't know that for the first 14 years of my life, but in high school, I learned that it was and I unfortunately have learned to think in a classist manner.

Here's a page that explains it well:

http://www.angelfire.com/md2/dcexperien ... fined.html

Also, strangely enough, people used to laugh at me for being too posh and not the other way around, especially when it came to my speech.

Like, all the time I find myself feeling that random things are too "low class," such as staying at home and doing nothing rather than spending money outdoors.



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26 Aug 2016, 1:47 pm

Certain brands of clothing remind me of girls who bullied me in school and there are some songs and a TV show that former friends of mine that were abusive liked that trigger bad memories.


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26 Aug 2016, 2:43 pm

Just thinking about school (or just hearing the word "school" for that matter). Anything school related just brings up horrible memories of all the bullying I had to endure in school.



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28 Aug 2016, 12:25 am

Chili powder. A person watching me forced me to eat a cup full of it because I was making loud vocalizations and she didn't like it.


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28 Aug 2016, 1:05 am

Whenever I see any discussions by people who can't stand how words are said or how people speak and say words. This brings back memories of how kids treated me and made fun of me for how I spoke and telling me I didn't know how to talk. I realize I would probably annoy these people and they probably can't stand people who have accents or speech impediments. Shame on them. I hope they don't treat them terribly.


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28 Aug 2016, 3:56 am

The hideous scar on my left wrist evokes memories of when I attempted to take my own life for the second time.


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28 Aug 2016, 4:09 am

the scars on my body reminding me of my physical ineptitude and less than stellar luck. my solitude reminding me of my many social faux pas. my bank balance reminding me of my poor financial acumen and timing in a time of my life when I should have been building wealth instead of frittering it away or failing to recognize opportunities.