Wasted life

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I think that if you take a different road now, you will see what you've been doing reflected in the new things that you try. I spent my entire life reading and studying. It doesn't have to be a waste of time, as long as you eventually stop. Take what you learned from those books and, almost like magic, new activities and experiences will take the shape of the things that you care about.

I'm afraid I may be wasting my teenage years. My mom says high school is supposed to be the most fun/exciting/happy part of your life, but so far it appears to be the worst.

I left college at 6th form, i always regretted not staying on till 7th form since i got into drinking/drugs which i did give up some years later 'just occasionally drink now thats it'.

Last year of college is supposed to be the best since your a senior but i dunno i dont think its all that great. I prob would of enjoyed it, atleast you have the choice.

College is highschool in NZ. Different education system here.

I relate to this very much... Especially about the teenage years aspect of it.
I think it is the 'non-sharing' of interests with people of my age group that creates this impression. Being reminded everywhere that you should be doing this or that, like this stuff, etc. enhances the idea that we don't live correctly and are wasting our years.
It sometimes becomes striking "wow, I'll never get to be XX years old again - I should be having sex and partying". But nah. Here's me being obsessed with a particular topic nobody gives a s**t about. Ah, well...

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I wasted 18 years of my life because I never realize my reality

I am about to be 19 and realizing everything like never kissing a girl or never having a real friendship really mess me up mentally but since I am still young I am determined not to waste my adult life from 20 years old all the way to 50 years old. I am going to try my best to make it count

Not a wasted life here, but ruined. I don't even want to go out.

But I guess closure is just for the perpetrators and bullies, not for the victims.

Despite the reasons being different, my life feels like a wasteland nowadays, because I can't enjoy it. I suffer more, if I try to go out.

I spent the first 41 years of my life trying like hell to make sense of this confusing and confused Neurotypical world. I felt during my time being lost and confused in an NT world I hated to be time lost. I felt my life was wasted for my first 41 years because; I had no job. I had only a section 8 apartment and SSI \ SSDI disability income. I volunteered at local hospitals and stuff but mostly I just hated my life. I wanted so much to be like everyone else (NT's) I felt my autism was a prison and my life was a total utter waste.

It just took me much longer to make sense of the NT world than most other people. I was clueless. It was not that I did not try to find jobs I did. I even got a few jobs but they never lasted long because; while I could do any job related tasks I was assigned. I could not deal with NT coworkers and the complex social games they played. I was logical and literal which made me an outcast at work. I came to work to work not socialize. I did not realize how much you had to socialize to survive at work so I'd get so frustrated I would meltdown and leave a job.

Four 41 years I felt my life was a waste till I went to community college, vocational rehab and other things that helped me make sense of the NT world. I got insights I needed to build a survival strategy for the human NT workplace. Survival in the NT workplace did not come easy to me. I was lucky to have a really patient employer and a less confusing workplace than most. Today I am successful and think my life is anything but wasted but that realization was over 50 years in the making. It is not easy to get beyond feeling your life is watsed when fighting autism but just know if you stick with it you will get beyond thinking your life is a waste.

Underachiever. So yes.

Yeah, you had all these options at your fingertips. But, you chose to read books. You are probably knowledgeable beyond the words you have read. The opportunity cost presents itself clearly. You read books, they provide better east than communicating with most people and are convenient. You must have enjoyed them. 10 years is a lot of time. Yeah you could have went outside or something, but you go outside reading too, just in a different way

Many Aspies study and get qualifications, some don't, either way there are many jobs where coming into contact with NT co workers happens little. Look for these jobs, or if you have the energy you might be able to fit in to the NT world for a short time. Find short term contract work. You might find you rotate around several places. I did. It worked for me. Some fields including engineering, IT and Medicine apparently attract Aspies. Look there.