Danielismyname wrote:
I don't know...I've never sought a label for something I don't think anyone can comprehend. It makes perfect sense to me but does it to you, i.e., are you the exact same person now as you were then, mentally? I’m emotionally the same too….
I never spoke with a voice or a pen…so no one knew who I was, at no fault of their own.
Mostly yes. My horizons, my goals and idea's have expanded as I've learned more but I do think quite the same way as I did before I've just gained experience and learned more. I think this applies to everyone in one way or another but not to the extent of what you are speaking. I am naturally someone who builds a system of things, your typical INTJ and so I built my world and my understanding when I was young of course, while information has come and gone and my "system" has changed here and there when seen feasible I do what works or what I deem best applicable.
Emotionally, I'm not sure if I've dematured or matured. If you look at it in the perspective that how I deal with the little knowledge of emotions I have now is more mature than back than, I've matured. If you look at it from the perspective of how much I understand and share my emotions, I've dematured.
When it came to labels, I guess I was a victim to some extent. Not to fit in with the world but to fit myself in to my world. Of course because everything is internalized. I didn't seek order for the world I sought order for myself and my understanding.
I'm good at seeing things from multiple standpoints, even if I don't connect I can usually understand or learn it well enough. This was the main thing that bothered me when I found out that I was AS, I introverted the idea that I was socially "unacceptable" and "awkward" as a sign that I just found everyone too stupid and didn't want to communicate anyhow but when it came does to it, it was something I couldn't compute, I couldn't learn or apply. I had so much difficulties not matter what research I did or what data I gathered on how to react I couldn't duplicate it. The idea that I couldn't learn something I wanted to learn blew me away because generally if I want to learn something I will learn it. Its never been an inability to grasp something, its always been simply I did not want to until now.