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k1hodgman
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10 Dec 2016, 2:41 pm

blackicmenace wrote:
You don't know me and I don't know you, but I care if you hurt yourself. If I care there must be others that care as well correct? We care okay? There must be something in this world that garners your interest? Starkid might be onto something and may be worth investigating.


True (thank you), but it's the nature of depression to not always be able to remember that. I've already found it (or else I really wouldn't be here), and I'm pursuing it wholeheartedly. But it can't be Schizoid because my emotions change way too rapidly, and dissipate just as quickly (unless it's anger). It's other people seeing them that makes me break into a cold sweat (not that it means anything because my face is an open book, I can't 'act' for ****).



k1hodgman
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10 Dec 2016, 2:47 pm

Fraser_1990 wrote:
I understand. But feeling as if you have no willpower to do things is again, a result of the environment that you are living in. I know that stepping out of something that is all you know is a scary prospect. But I would say that if you've managed this far in the environment in which you describe, then you certainly don't have much to be fearful of in the outside world. You should take strength from the fact that you have made it through these conditions for so long. Use that strength as your willpower to make a better life for yourself.

The strength is there, you just need to look deep within yourself and find it.


I guess more then anything, I just don't want whatever I have to be because of the abuse.



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10 Dec 2016, 2:48 pm

Private Idaho wrote:
It seems like you very much need to make a change in your life to break the routine. Perhaps you can start with a part time job or volunteer work.


My Mother would like that too.



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10 Dec 2016, 2:50 pm

All I can say is you are not alone!

My whole life my family has forced me into isolation and all along I thought it was my own doing?!

Family members show their true colors when you need them most.

Hello?

Is anyone there?



k1hodgman
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10 Dec 2016, 2:52 pm

hihowareyou wrote:
All I can say is you are not alone!

My whole life my family has forced me into isolation and all along I thought it was my own doing?!

Family members show their true colors when you need them most.

Hello?

Is anyone there?


It's like the world's hardest punch to the gut the first time you realize "Your Family only wants what's best for you." is wrong.