ZombieBrideXD wrote:
The self harm urges are getting worse. I can fource happiness but everytime i do i crash even harder.
Im considering going back to the psych ward... Or esle i worry ill get too low again and do something irreversable.
Is it worth it to go back if i know my seasonal depression will pass? Should i just stop thinking about it? I honestly dont know..
I can tell you by experience that weed will just make things worse; it does take the anxiety away at the time, but it exacerbates the depressive symptomatology in the long run. All the advise about preventing SAD is very much on point, but you seem to have an acute episode (considering all the suicidal thoughts and self-harm), so I'd highly advise you to get in contact with the psych ward
as soon as possible. You'll need some balance before you can start drafting a plan that includes light therapy and dog walks (which I'm sure will help you a lot later on!). Wish you the best of luck and hope to hear back in not too long
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 139 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 67 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)