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Plus I cannot endure working for a living for a very long time and it's ostensibly impossible for me to form and maintain relationships as an adult, so it's difficult for me not to depend on my parents
Agreed. My abilities really don't match my standards and expectations. I am very independently minded, I hate having any kind of dependency on others and value self sufficiency, plus I am very private about my personal business and don't want anyone sticking their nose in - but my inabilities to work mean I get stuck living with my relatives. I can't afford rent, or anything else, without a job, so I just end up sitting around. The social aspects of working are also impossible for me. People seem to think you just go to work and do a task - if only that were the case. It takes an incredible amount of social cohesion. Plus there are the schedules and so on which I don't do well with and I just end up shutdown. I'm working on this, to be completely independent, it's that important.
I hate the very idea of being looked after in any way. I just wish my functional abilities weren't practically negligible and I could be totally independent.
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Alexithymia - 147 points.
Low-Verbal.