what exactly makes people think you are weird ?

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all the best people are weird

people tell me i'm weird all the time.
people who mean it in a good way are "my people".

I never really understood what made kids think I was weird. I started to take it as a compliment in high school. Obviously people can tell I'm different even if they don't know. I used to spend my energy analyzing what weird is and what made a person weird so I would know how not to act. I wanted to be normal and have kids like me. I can only guess what made kids think I was weird.

I did get upset over things most kids wouldn't have gotten upset about. Kids thought I wanted things my way. I talked funny. I stuttered. I had odd body posture so I looked odd when I sat or stood. I think my tactile issues made me look weird. Plus I liked smelling things and I played with my lips or ears or my hair. My mom used to tell me kids will think I'm weird if I did X Y or Z. She didn't find me strange or weird because she was my mother and parents tend to be bias and think different about their own children than they would about other kids who act the same way.

I use scripting, wear unfashionable clothes that hang off me, struggle to make eye contact, and perpetually look lost. Whilst I cannot say for certain what others think, I imagine they see me as rather dimwitted and odd. Unfortunately it just so happens to be true.

I cannot even walk into a supermarket and pick up three simple items without reviewing my list on a number of occasions. I always have to retrace my steps, and usually spend far longer in such a stimulating environment than I should have to.

Moreover, I also walk into rooms and forget what I had intended to do, too. Is that symptomatic of autism or ADHD? I only have a formal diagnosis of autism, but I suspect I have the inattentive subtype of ADHD, too. I am desperate to try either ritalin, Dexedrine or adderall, but they are unavailable to those in my country without an ADHD diagnosis. And even then my doctor would probably be against such a prescription. It's shameful to admit to but I cannot fathom how I can possibly be employed if I am not taking stimulants such as those I had previously listed. My mind is usually all over the place, and I cannot seem to hold any information in my ginormous head. Verbal instructions are useless and I do not comprehend written language particularly well either.

I guess I am one of those people others look at and derisively say "What is the point of this human being?"

"When you're strange no one remembers your name"

^ People are strange, when you're a stranger.

I'm a musician. If you hang around musicians of any genre, you find out very quickly musicians are a completely different breed.

Think?

I am weird. I guess they figured it out when I would ramble on about various things which others had no interest in.

what exactly makes people think you are weird ?

My post history.

My reactions, either I react strongly or just ignore something because I'm completely internalizing it and have no backbone to express myself in the situation. I literally shut down in class sometimes because some girl was a little catty and I want to literally attack her and beat her senseless. I think people sense that aggression in me. I have acted out before, mostly to my abusive ex boyfriends, and I can say the meanest, although accurate and on point things, at times.

How perceptive I am. I can figure out a situation in like 10 seconds. Give you immense detail and tell you what you're thinking even if you're not aware of it. I learned to shut up most of the time now but it freaks out my boyfriend a LOT sometimes, lol. Wow, some of you also do this, according to the thread! Yes, it is about TRUTH in the situation, not what is acceptable to everyone else. It makes you the black sheep quickly.

My choice of mates. Everyone would always ask, why are you with that guy? I can't go with jocks, although they are attracted to me, I hate that culture. I'm a bookworm studying writing in college. Clearly, no jocks can fit into my life, I don't find them attractive either. I would pick kind of strange or unattractive men, who turned out to abuse me. That made me look reaaaaally weird to others, being with clearly insane people. My boyfriend now is really cute and sweet though so that part of me is healing!

I'm also a musician. Yes, we are a different breed, Meistersinger. Old souls, really particular. Most in my experience have been awful people but I have met some who were also fabulous and strange. I love Jimi Hendrix who I suspect had Asperger's or Autism. I am obsessed with 60s and 70s music, I only listen to that, some new music sure, like DIIV and Beach Fossils, all music that sounds psychedelic and 60s or 70s but... recent. I dress like a hippy too. People think this is soooooooo weird. People are weird, I think, not us.

Ohhh, and I study the occult. Astral projection, lucid dreaming, etc. I am obsessed with that stuff. I don't go around telling everyone but friends do think it is strange.

Who knows, probably because I'm myself. I'm honest, I'm friendly.
I'm not fickle.
Unless you act stupid and pretend to be average, people will tend to hate you.
Conform to the Norm, I believe is the catchphrase.
The group can achieve more than the individual. Ha! Tell that to Newton or Nikolai Tesla