Has anybody even tried to use your disability against you?

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well i was the only programmer for the company i worked for which handed huge amounts of supermarket scan data and i wrote programs for analyzing the data etc, but one day a super cocky young man came to our company as a hired help to assist me with mundane tasks (he was very unhappy at his enforced subordination to me).

he wanted to replace me as head programmer and knew i had asperger syndrome, and part of his argument to the bosses was the fact that everything i programmed was of my own design with no reference to any higher education pertinent to computers.

he was educated highly and was very versed in SQL, and i looked at it and discounted it immediately.

i wrote my own indexing program which was a simple binary "higher or lower" routine, and if you halve the search area with every check of whether what you are looking for is higher or lower in value than the current query, it only takes about 300 cycles of computer analysis to find the record being searched for.

we had one database with 125 million records, and he demonstrated to the bosses how SQL was the answer, but it took his SQL query (which of course he did not write the mechanics) about 30 minutes to find a record that was being searched for, and my routine took less than one second.

so if you wanted to retrieve 100 records, then his routine would have taken days to complete, whereas mine took still less than one second.

so his spiel was (in effect) "why pin your hopes on an uneducated mental defective", and i showed them why, and he was then shown the door.

that is what i mean by "they hit a brick wall while i sail on"

in order to counteract the potential sound of conceitedness as to my ability, i will say that every time the bosses hired "lackeys" to help me with mundane tasks that they thought i should not be wasting my time with, i could not delegate any tasks to them because i wanted to control the reins on everything.

and when they tried to promote me to an "executive" that required trips to client sites to demonstrate my stuff, i always failed to gain their attention because i was not able to socially integrate myself with them in order to acquire their understanding and trust.

whatever.

Only by my parents...and they tried to make it into a disability I probably don't even have. My mom does show a few Munchhausen by proxy traits. Not saying she has the disorder, but she has made up things to tell the psychiatrist...probably so I would seem discredible when I tried to tell them about the intense emotional abuse at home. I wanted to move out and get my own apartment (even if it was the crappiest one in the world) because I couldn't cope with her bullying anymore. She refused to help me get one because I supposedly needed to into a group home first to learn how to be independent. I ran away from home (I was 27 at the time) and spent five days in a homeless shelter.

My mom thinks I'm bipolar because I have the audacity to show emotion once in a while. My mom would trigger me into meltdowns and thus, she thought I was bipolar. People around here know absolutely Jack s**t about autism. I think I was only diagnosed as a kid because I presented more like a boy than a girl. But if you are a high functioning autistic female ADULT, forget anything. You can only get "help" for comorbids...and that help doesn't really help me when the psychiatrists and psychologists around here don't know anything about autism.

I had mood swings during puberty, but that wasn't a sign of being a teenage girl, that was a sign of bi-ploar. If I wasn't chipper all the time, I was bipolar. My mom says being around me is like walking on eggshells...I always felt the same way about her and my mom could get VERY angry to the point of being scary. But apparently, I'M the one with issues because I react to things and try to do something about them or don't stand around waiting for someone else to solve them or just accept them and think my complaining to random people is going to do something.