livingwithautism wrote:
What are your most common stims? Do you stim more in private or in public?
I'm pretty much constantly stimming in some way, although I try to tone it down or at least switch to less obvious stims in public, because it draws attention to me that I don't want. My most common stims are rocking, flapping my hand (most of my hand stims are only with my left, for some reason), rapidly hitting my chest, squeezing my collarbone, whispering nonsense, kind of jerking my head while making a snarling noise, and there are a couple hand things I do that are harder to describe. One is kind of a hand flick, and the other is something I do with my thumb, that feels kind of like I'm popping it in and out of place. I also will make kind of a "wave" motion with my hand sometimes. When I'm standing, I will also kind of bounce. I realized when I was at camp this past summer that when I'm very stressed/overloaded and trying to avoid having a meltdown in front of everyone, I'll pace.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"