I just wanna say thank you guys so much for all of your replies for two reasons in particular.
1) I wasn't even aware that a lot of these are Stims, and I do some of these myself.
and
2) I grew up, all the way through into full adulthood (30) in environments where it was imperative that I suppress my Stimming. Otherwise I was liable to be bullied to the point of physical violence or emotional abuse. And so now that I'm in my own home, a safe space, with a supportive significant other I am trying to start stimming again because otherwise I live in a constant state of burnout, depression and anxiety. But I've forgotten how to, and I have a lot of conditioned responses to my own stims where I feel ashamed for doing them. I've had plenty of advice from bloggers in the autistic support community as to how I can start stimming again and move past the negative responses. I was told I should try as many stims as possible, to keep trying them until the conditioned responses stop and I can be comfortable again with who I am, and so all of these examples help me SO MUCH. So thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart.
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