Depression

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Hi SunshineEmma,

quite nice picture - I should visit UK as soon as possible.
But back to the theme. It doesn't change anything if you are down except that you become more and more depressive. Nobody gets back to life, no one becomes healthier, nothing that happened in the past gets undone. Only you are getting more and more depressive an that would make the people who like you to suffer even more. Once they are on antidepressant medication most people don't get away anymore and wanting to have children becomes a really big problem. If you are religiously treat to become depressively as becoming more and more a part of the evil. You have to stay positive!
But how to handle it? Get outdoors as much as possible. Seeing the bright daylight makes much less depressive then dark rooms. Try to recognise anything positive and to care about everything that is nice around you - the warm bed, nice clothes, flowers, pictures, animals and everything that you really like. And that you can still see the people that you really love. Stop about thinking again and again and again of all the bad things. Speak with your parents that you're worried about them and really anxiously. It's a good thing to do so. I wish you the best that you are still able to stop it by changing your mind and get mentally stronger in the most positive way.

/\ I would add to what quite an extreme wrote that you can get a mental health boost from eating chia seeds, walnuts and ground/milled flaxseeds. They're all high in Omega 3 which is good for memory and alleviating anxiety and depression.

I fell into a psychotic depression around the time me & my 1st girlfriend broke up. I believed things were going on that likely weren't & it caused me to have lots of panic attacks along with anger problems. Anyways I ended up seeing a doc after I flipped out & slashed my arm 9x when I saw her bragging on a forum about how she got so drunk she had to get her stomach pumped. I started taking meds & seeing a psychiatrist for the next 5 years.
I had counseling alittle bit but didn't really feel like it helped me but I know it can help others & may be a great treatment for you OP along with meds. Instead of the counseling I found posting about things on forums helped me analyze, sort things out, find people who related, & get advice. I made LOTS of LONG posts about similar stuff repeatedly so there's no need to apologize. Me & some other members of this community want to use our experiences & knowledge to help others if/when we can so I say post away if it helps you.

I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and psychosis 20 years ago in the spring. I first knew that I had those conditions when I was in high school. I kept it to myself hoping they would all go away. I didn't want to tell my parents that there was something wrong, because they would have brushed it off as teenage angst and emotions.

Good on you for being proactive and seeking help.

You will find a lot of support on here. Don't underestimate the positive role it can play in your life. You are a beautiful and intelligent young woman with your whole life ahead of you. You deserve to be happy, and you will be.

Never give up. It can't rain all the time.

Aww thank you That was taken about 4-6 weeks ago.

I took your advice and got out and about this morning. I had to go to the doctor's anyway and I have a therapy appointment in the works, so I should get an appointment via the post in the next two weeks. If not then I need to phone them up. And I am also on depression meds now But hopefully my depression will be short lived and I can get back to normal again quickly.

After my doctor's appointment I grabbed a milkshake and I spoke to the staff there a little too which has helped perk me up a little. And I also met an old school friend there as well, though that didn't go as well as I would have liked. He kept looking at his hands rather than at me, so I think I maybe put him off a bit? I don't know. Maybe it's just me, I'm not very good at socialising.

After that I took some pictures of our farm and then I went inside to listen to some music which is what I am doing now. I'm feeling very positive at the moment, a few worries pestering me but nothing too severe. Just want to have a nice and quiet day.

@Alita Thank you so much for the support and encouraging words That really cheered me up
I'll remember what you said

Big hugs and thank yous to everyone! Your support with my problems has helped me so much! I've spoken to the doctor's and I haven't felt this good for a long time.

Thank you everyone

Emma.

Depression meds need a couple of weeks before they start to help. If you are really feeling better now I would suggest you to stop the meds. My ex has been on this for a long time. The only thing that really helps you is to stop yourself as soon as it begins and to change your focus towards feeling good and towards all the positive things that the life provides. (Me? (SCNR))



No it's just him. I think he felt ashamed because of you for finding him needing a shrink. Without any self-esteem because of this he felt really bad and looked at his hands only hoping that the embarassing situation is over soon. (Thats's what I could imagine.) Because of your picture I know that you are not only neat but also really pretty. Most guys want to impress such a girl for being with her. To meet her while visiting a shrink? That's horrible!

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Hi Emma,
I think you have done absolutely fantastic. You have recognised the signs of depression. You have been able to self care by making and Keeping the doctor's appointment. You have shown greater wisdom than the majority of the population by going to the appointment with notes prepared.

You have been dealing with things in the last two years which will have made great demands on your mind and brain. Depression is how the brain can react after such times.

I have had a similar time of depression, but I did not realise in time to make a controlled consultation with my doctor and instead persued one of my interests to a point of exhaustion and precipitated a crisis which saw me at the doctors.

Things do get better. I have a precious memory of tears in the morning a few days after the visit to the doctors and starting the medicine. They were good, moving tears as the medicine was starting its work and my moods started moving again. They were the good tears as a really depressed mood started to break up.

It takes time. Little and often with all those good things you are doing.

Oh, and the person who looked at your hands. You have probably found another one of us on the spectrum and done a kind act without even realising by making a situation where they could communicate in a natural way for the spectrum. A good result I think.

I can kinda relate. my grandma and my parents are getting really old. I used to have bad anxiety worrying about them dying. Then wham life threw me something 10 times worse. I fell into a depression for a long time, and only just recovered last year. I guess it's a confidence thing. You've been through the mill, then you know you could handle it and could survive. It won't be pleasant but it will pass. I heard the average depression last 2 to 3 years. Maybe you'll be out of it soon. Mine lasted about two years. Of course it changed me. I'm never quite the same again. But I do think I have more confidence and resilience because of it.

Thank you for the support and encouragement. It's nice to know there's so many caring people out here

@y-pod I think that's what sort of tipped me over the edge if that makes sense. My parents are both fifty now but with their current health problems I'm not sure how much longer they both have. That terrifies me. I saw my friend die and that destroyed me, but when my parents pass away, I don't know what will happen to me. I'm hoping I'll be depression free and will be more than capable of looking after and caring for myself by then.

My dad's Diabetes is more or less under control, except his sugar levels are on the rise which isn't good. Before the summer he'd had 5s and 6s and now he's getting 7s and 8s, not dangerously high but I know if they're too high and still rising he will end up on insulin. That scares me, I don't want that to happen. But I try not to think about it too much. I've been told to relax and calm down so that's what I'm trying to do.

When I was abused was a lot more difficult to talk about. They asked about it but didn't pressure me, so I pretty much said nothing about that. The doctor said we would talk about it more the next time so I need to make sure I write it down maybe so they know. It's the one thing I hate talking about.

This afternoon I'm feeling low again but the doctor said that this will keep happening until the meds have taken full effect. I want to get better so I'm trying my best to keep positive and block any negative thoughts out of my head.
I also have to keep on writing down the negative thoughts, sort of like a journal, whenever they pop in to my head. So far today it's only a small list so that can only be good.

Thanks again for the support, love and hugs to everyone

(((SunshineEmma)))

Just wanted to say, that I have a great deal of confidence within your abilites to get beyond a great many difficulties

Just thought I'd post this link here. This song always cheers me up when I'm depressed.



I hope it helps for anyone who needs a boost.

I don't suffer from depression but I do get low sometimes.

Anyway, this song is beautiful ! ! It really puts you in a [positive feel good] mood

Emma, I won't pretend to know what you're going through as I haven't experienced it before. What I will say is, you seem like a sweet woman and I think it's incredible how upbeat you remain during difficult times.
(( )) Please let us know how you get on.

Brandon Lee"The Crow" 1994 I recognize that quote