B19 wrote:
I doubt the probability of having another birthday. My immune system, never robust and always deficient, has reached a point of weakness after a year of serious serial infections and unless this can be arrested I can't see much hope left for even another year.
I currently feel as if I am trapped in the top story of a rickety old building. now so derelict that is collapsing day by day beneath me. However I guess physical collapse is kinder in some way than the afflictions of dementia and loss of mental faculties.
The eventual arrival of Summer may give my fragile immunity a boost, and Summer here officially arrives in a fortnight's time, but the climate is very strange and unpredictable now, and the seasons are so bizarre.
I dream of the best kind of Summer days walking by the sea, seeing the shorebirds I love, feeling the warm northerly breeze on my skin, breathing the clean clear air there. The pleasure of the sea and the coast have always been better experiences than any birthday was, and the gifts and delights of nature better than any other present.
I wonder when it will all end, and if there will be a recurrence of times past, a renewal of life energy, more to come, or not.
Don't just dream of those summer days walking by the sea; to whatever extent you're capable of doing, actually go there and enjoy. Even if walking is out of the question, just sitting for half-an-hour in the pleasant breeze is revivifying and I try to do it as often as possible.