The really funny thing is that I'm very afraid of heights, but at the same time I dream of one day being able to fly on my own two wings I think I'm better with the idea of flying myself because I would be in complete control and would feel the air beneath my wings supporting me. Still would take a lot if getting used to, though, I'm sure.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"