Question if it is normal that my traits of ASD gets milder

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on top of that I love my obsessions and would not give them up for the world

plus I have a heart instead of a swinging brick

I am sorry that I said my symptoms of ASD looks like Broad Autism Phenotype, it's just it's so mild, but I still do IEP and IPP goals to improve myself more. I want to socialize, I am a very social type of a person with ASD. But, deep inside, my brain will always say that I have history of developmental delay.

Ironically my Aspie-ness has become more and more prevalent since my late diagnosis.
I masked and scripted very effectively for 48 years. The last three years have been spent letting my Aspie-ness come out more, embracing that and trying not to feel like I always have to fit in and please everyone else.

So, no, in my case just the opposite. My aspie traits are getting stronger and that's actually a good thing. I finally feel like I'm getting to know the real me hiding below layers upon layers and many years of self inflicted NT indoctrination.

That is actually healthy that you are letting your symptoms of ASD out, I know that it's a neurodevelopental disorder, but it's for your own good, pretending to be normal for a long time and just to make others happy will not tech others how to treat you with the respect you want and it causes you too much stress, they may to know what sensory issues you have, and they might do something that causes you sensory overload without meaning to, but you are just good at hiding it.

Don't have a long-term false self, have a true self when you need it.

It's a Damocles-sword sometimes. Often it's just easier to mask to get through certain situations. This is usually followed by a feeling of being a fake.
So I try to be more authentic even if this sometimes means that I don't get the results I'm looking for. At least I feel like I'm being more authentic.

That is much better than forcing yourself to pretend to be normal 24/7, it's not healthy.

I believe that when you're completely done with life, the world and what NTs think about you, you don't notice your traits as much.

My understanding is that Once an Aspie, always an Aspie—but severity can change.

In my case, as I muddled through life I got better at muddling through life. That is, I improved my coping skills. (I am unclear whether I was masking—I did not know I was an Aspie so I wasn't trying to hide that I was an Aspie but I was increasingly aware there were differences and I might've been learning to mask that there were differences.) Because of this I believe the severity of my "symptoms" could've been seen to be getting milder.

But, as I successfully muddled through life I gained more control of my life and would've reacted more negatively when thngs did not agree with my preferences. Because of this I suspect the severity of my "symptoms" could've been seen to be getting more severe—since my traits were would be seen to be ^{text edited} intruding on my life more often and to a greater degree.

Either way it was still the same "me".

I think we should use other words than just ASD level 1-3, because depending on the situation and how stressed I am, I can behave like I have ASD level 2 and sometimes 3, especially when I have a manic episode.