FranzOren wrote:
I am sorry that in history not kind to myself. I have very low-self esteem, suicidal thoughts, envy myself and get frustrated at myself and sometimes call myself "ret*d" for having profound learning disorder, and sometimes give up on learning, as it is so frustrating. I used the phrase "ret*d" on myself from people who called me that for not learning like my peers.
I am also mentally ill after that.
There is no profit in that.
It only makes things worse.
A psychologist enlightened me about internalised negative thoughts.
Thinking affects your moods.
Negative thinking affects your mood negatively.
I was advised to change to positive internal dialogue instead, but you need to be realistic.
Over optimistic thinking is not constructive either.