What is your current hyperfixation?

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Classical music, especially Shostakovich at the moment.

Figuring out what the f is going on with my boob.

I definitely miss it. I'm sure that if I still hyperfixated to the degree I did as a child and teenager, that it would affect my job to at least some degree. But it was also hours of fun and passion that I feel like I can never relive again.

I honestly am beginning to think my interest in mental disorders is a special interest. Not nearly as intense an interest as the ones of my childhood, but still.

At the moment my special interest is STROKES. I suffered a massive stroke that destroyed my brain and my ability to read and my knowledge of words. But I have been at war against the damage it produced and made some progress. A few days ago I actually passed another major milestone. I heat my home during the cold winter with firewood. After the stroke, I couldn't even figure out how to start my chainsaw. But now in the past few weeks, I bought a large battery powered chainsaw and began cutting up dead trees around the house. I then figured out how to make my log splitter work.

I believe that is a special interest, not a hyperfixation. the latter refers to focused interests that do not last for significant periods.

my hyperfixation right now is on Brazil. It will probably pass, like my hyperfixation on Invader Zim did, and countless others I can't remember.

Weird indie animation projects on YouTube. Case in point:

Have you seen this one?

^ I have not! great, another for the queue....

BULLS EYE ! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

SHOSTYYYYYY ! !! !! !!

Symphonies 1, 4, 5, 7,8,10, 11, 12 ----- OMG ..... especially the finale of #7 ! !! !!

I discovered my Shosty in 2020. I was blown to Jupiter. I began developing a fixation on the Nazi invasion of Leningrad. This was before I knew I was autistic. I had a lot of things going on at the time, and, not knowing that a special interest was beginning to unfold, I forced myself NOT to start reading up on the invasion, because I knew that if I started to read up on it, there'd be no end to it. So I resisted the temptation. I DID read up on Shosty and the inspiration and meanings behind his symphonies. Had I known, back then that I was autistic (got my dx in 2022), I would've recognized, "Gee, this is a new special interest; let's RUN WITH IT."

What's your favorite Shosty symphony? Or is it the violin quartets or piano pieces that you're more interested in?

Though it's not a special interest, I actually have vast knowledge about strokes and have written quite a bit about them for my health blog.

The economy

I had my Shostakovitch phase when I was about 18-25. Still like him, but his music just gets me too worked up to listen to it often! I really like the concertos and string quartets.

Strokes affect people in a variety of ways. Some people lose their ability to move their right arm and right leg or their left arm and leg. Some experience vision loss. In my case my heart stopped beating in the middle of the night. My whole body died. About 5 minutes later, there was an electrical spark in my body and it began to beat again. But the damage was already done. It affected me in four areas. The first area was within the brain itself. I lost my ability to read and at the same time I lost my knowledge of spoken words. It was crazy. I did not lose my ability to write but only to read. I would look at words and they broke apart into an entirely new alphabet system. One that I could not read. And it was very hard to convey my thoughts when I couldn't figure out what the words were. But that was not the only area of damage. The second area was in the back of my head. This is where visual information is transitioned. I lost my right side vision. I am blind on my right side of each eye. The third area was inside the eyes themselves. The third layer of the interior of the eye is a liquid, mostly water. But after the stroke, it turned into a gel. It made it difficult to see. The fourth area of damage was on the surface of the eye. Normally the body keeps the surface of the eye clean and effective by producing a liquid at the surface to purify the outer area. But after the stroke, it stopped producing the liquid. It causes a condition called dry eye. It feels like there are slivers of glass in the eye and it causes great pain to move the eye and look at anything.

So it is very difficult to recover from the severity of damage that the stroke produced in my case. I have been working hard for over 2.5 years. I made progress but I still have a long ways to go.

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I've had two cerebellar strokes if anyone is interested to know about them.

My current hyperfixation is .... nothing actually. Just a lot of procrastination.

I'm catsitting in my bedroom for 14 days while my girl recovers from surgery so there's not much I can do except have visitors (lol), do boring administrative stuff online, or clean.

I guess I could do more Christmas shopping online.

According to the internet:
A cerebellar stroke happens when blood supply to the cerebellum is stopped. This part of the brain helps with body movement, eye movement, and balance. There are two main types of stroke: ischemic and hemorrhagic . An ischemic stroke is the most common type.

So that would be the same type of stoke that I suffered. So tell us how the stroke affected you?