Do you question things more than other people do?

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My therapist insists the reason I don't fit in anywhere or with anyone is that I'm aggressive. I asked her once "Was Hitler less aggressive than me? Because he had many friends..." She rolled her eyes and didn't answer. Typical NT reaction to their shallow theories being questioned.

Have been told throughout life (including by my teachers when I was in junior high) that I think too much, that I'm "making it harder for myself", and that I "make things more complicated than they need to be". Be that as it may, I'm not some highly logical person, I feel too much emotion. That's problematic also & seems to confuse/disturb others even more than my mere overthinking.
Being a youngster who asks deep questions/thinks critically was considered positive (in some areas, such as academic pursuits) and made grownups say I'd do well in life & become a successful adult. Depressingly, I've turned out to be a major disappointment to those who predicted great acheivement for me. They got my hopes up for myself, too-I was convinced, but once I left school the disillusionment (and failed independence) came crashing in on me.
I just hide in my home & have my great thoughts & intense feelings, safely away from the dangerous, scary, painful world. That's an oversimplification-but I'm closer to lonely agoraphobic than the impressive fantasy version of how I'd be & what I'd be doing-which I imagined as a kid. I am unable to work & can only be around people infrequently, have accomplished nothing it seems.

Vote yes I tend to. Only in my head. I would never burden anyone with my deep over-analysis on things that I should obviously resolve on my own.

I've gotten in trouble at work for being "bogged down in the details".

Of course, in doing so, I usually found better ways of doing the job - making my supervisor feel uncomfortable (like I'm making her look bad or something) so she bullied me out of the job, eventually firing me for a false reason I couldn't disprove because she got her social network on-board behind her.

There's a strange, pervasive NT mentality of, "All those people couldn't be wrong! If it's one vs. many, the one must be in the wrong! FIRE HIM! CRUCIFY HIM! He's not one of us!"

They know you're not wrong but right. They're just scared to death of anything or anyone that might cause the herd to be less tightly knit, so they destroy us.